tikki

sick n tired of it all so fuck it all


1.this week made me remember why im better at being an asshole

2.monday:jon hung himself

3.tuesday:michelle was killed in a motorcycle crash

4.wedsday: we decided that itd be better if we called it quits(and i have a feeling that itll only get worse

5.thursday:what i needed didnt need me like i thought and/or hope

6.friday:i decided that i fuckin hate all there is in this world but it passed by 9pm

7.saturday: i wanna go see the movie troy i hears its good

8.think im gonna up my drinking quite a bit

9.tonite me and the_mad_t are hitin the strip club to mostly relax but girls acting like they like is a bonous

10.being nice and hideing what you truely feel gets you hurt however if your a dick youll end up in the same situation the only difference being nice takes effort

if youve taken my friendship for granted then screwed me over go to hell i will see you fucking burn

stay strong rock on
-T



well here it is my turn

the girl if anyone knows whats happening first contacted me then gradually got closer which was kool i really enjoyed her then 1 nite i got drunk came home and said i love then she fuckin fliped out saying "oh my god did you really mean that because ive been wanting to say it for a long time"

well then when i thought about it i did have feelings for her but it seems now it was more just a comfortible spot

so then the i love yous started which it got alot more serious i was falling for her hard she would call all the time and we would talk about her problems and how bad she had it in life how she made mistakes and now they were comeing back to haunt

so we had kept making plans to meet over there which is 5 hours away mind you and every weekend i work so there was no time on top of that she kept telling me that she didnt want me to come there at whatever time because she didnt want me to be involved in her fight and didnt want me to get hurt

so finally after about a month and a half we did meet in troy ohio which i did not pressure her into kissing in public i just thought it was odd that some of the stuff she said on the phone she would do and now im here and its like a totally different person
wehad a great nite and then in the morning she just left nothing just took off and here i am thinkin what the hell just happened

so we still continued the long distance relation ship thing and she got in more trouble and shit just kept happening to her and i had no problem with just listening to her problems

then it got so bad she had to move away from the situation without telling me anything exept dont call me i contact you which gueess what she never did

so i know shes in trouble and i cant contact her but she never bothered to tell me anything at all which by the way in this amount of time she started dateing someone else whatever

so i send her a text of conncern she takes it the wrong way and talks shit about me on sg what the fuck childness is that then finally wedsday she emails me saying that she needed time ALONE
to sort things out ALONE then im told shes dating some other which i was totally fine with the seperation or whatever because she would have been the first one that it ended with both sides happy with what happened so i thought id call her friday and shes heading to ohio but apparently not wanting to hang out seems really shady to me

on top of that i read her new boyfriends journal and it said a guy broke up with my girlfriend and they were not even going out ????? so what had she been telling him all this time so then he called me a dueche and said they were gonna laugh about it or something
all the time i mde you laugh dont make up for the times i went to sleep worried wether you were ok when in fact you were lieing the whole time

i dont care its fucking cowardness and childish lies to tell one side of the story i just thought id tell some of mine
laterz