I started my new job this week. It's going well so far. My only issue is getting up like 3-4 hrs earlier than normal. I was on my old schedule for years. So waking up at 6:30 is killing me. But I really think this job is gonna work out. It's nerve racking to change jobs after you've been somewhere for...
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caraphernelia:
It's hard losing a friend :( And don't hurry into dating if you're not ready, do it when you are :3 

I've been Arizona for five years and some change. It's been a trip. Lots of ups and downs. Lots of changes both personally and around me. Now I'm about to make a huge change professionally. I'm leave my current job that I've been at 4.5 years for a new start. It's a good bump in pay with way...
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I find myself going through phases in life. I've come back to this site countless times. I'll stop paying and go away and then come back to it. Age 22 I finally decide to become a member and it becomes one of the best things I ever become apart of. Now at age 35 it's nostalgic. Well I'm back. Let's...
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There is a juxtaposition happening right now in my life. So much is going right for me in so many ways, I am so happy for the little things that are happening around me but two very big things are not what I would like them to be for me anymore. Work used to be fun and I used to enjoy the people I had...
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adelina:
Ps
i like your username biggrin
mellon:
I once ran into someone sitting by the side of the street in New York with a box and a sign that just said "fucked." So I gave her twenty bucks, which she really appreciated, but now I wonder if there was more I could have done. That's what I think of when I see your username.

You can't un-do what you did. You can't make her see you the way she did before. You can't make up for disloyalty in the past with loyalty in the presentthe past is already written. If you want to make things right, first of all accept that it may be impossible. And second, stop expecting anything positive out of her. Stop hoping she will ever forgive you. Stop wishing that she would smile at you. If you can't live without those things, you don't love heryou just have a dependency on her. If you do love her, what that really means is that you want her to be happy, no matter what, whether it's with you, with someone else, or alone. And you want her not to suffer.

So stop doing anything that causes her suffering, no matter how small. And only do things that she actually appreciates from you; if you do something, and it's clearly unappreciated, stop doing it. Let your own ego out of the equation: love is not about you. It's not about getting something. Love is about two things only: restraining yourself from causing harm, and doing welcome kindness.
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Next up a week off work paid. Time to do some soul searching
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When do you walk away? When do you stop caring? When do you give up? When do you stop loving someone? I fucked up. There is no question to that. But that never stopped me from loving her. I just never knew how to deal with that love, and the fear that has been programmed into my life of letting someone love you.
mellon:
You walk away when you are asked to, and you come back when you are asked to, if you still want to. You also walk away if you think that staying is hurting the person you love, even if you are asked not to. If you love someone, you act in their interest. If you aren't acting in their interest, what you feel for them isn't love.
brightredscream:
I believe in fighting until you can't fight anymore.
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Devastated. We broke up last night. 3 yrs and everything we went through and it's over. It's a lot of my fault. I did things and said things I shouldn't have. I love her more anything and it sucks I wish I could take those things back but I can't. And now I pay for that.

bringyouhell:
I'm sorry, man. frown
sbmick:
Hope you get feeling better man
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mellon:
Escher meets Harley-Davidson? I like it!
cassy:
hey you. glad to hear your relationship is still hanging in there mister. wink it's all worth it in the end.
nice to see you're back.