The weather is shit. Woke up to pouring down rain. I'm sitting here in light blue sweat pants and a hoodie covering my face. It's chilly in this room. And I have another day of nothing. I'm off of work again and have no plans, nor friends. I'm thinking it's looking like I'll be sitting here all day in front of Calvin's monitor staring at sg.
My boring life. As we know it! He's gotta work at 2. He almost walked out on his job yesterday. I don't understand why he didn't.
I wanna dress up cute and walk the streets of Portland. Although there is no reason to and plus it's raining. Gah!
Send me your love.
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Thinking about doing some major soul searching. Not too good at it but I know I need to do something with myself. Lately I've been withdrawn from everything, discontent and extremely restless. I don't know what's going on with me anymore. All I've been in the mood for is crying. That's not far off from my norm, but it's enhanced at least 50%. Can't even begin to explain what's been going on in my mind. Just complete loneliness and depression.
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So a true alcoholic fixes there problems with booze. I'm not really looking to fix my problems though. I'm feeling somewhat relieved and now off to get some drinking done. I'm just in the mood to let loose. Take care and have good night everyone!
My boring life. As we know it! He's gotta work at 2. He almost walked out on his job yesterday. I don't understand why he didn't.
I wanna dress up cute and walk the streets of Portland. Although there is no reason to and plus it's raining. Gah!
Send me your love.
Edit:
Thinking about doing some major soul searching. Not too good at it but I know I need to do something with myself. Lately I've been withdrawn from everything, discontent and extremely restless. I don't know what's going on with me anymore. All I've been in the mood for is crying. That's not far off from my norm, but it's enhanced at least 50%. Can't even begin to explain what's been going on in my mind. Just complete loneliness and depression.
Edited again:
So a true alcoholic fixes there problems with booze. I'm not really looking to fix my problems though. I'm feeling somewhat relieved and now off to get some drinking done. I'm just in the mood to let loose. Take care and have good night everyone!
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Today I only worked 5.5 hours, but it felt like 14 or so. *Now*, I'm gonna go to sleep.
Hopefully everything'll work out. I think that you do have a reason to walk the streets of Portland--Why not just walk around and do some soul searching at the same time. It's always good to get out of your normal surroundings to reflect.
Best of luck
There are lots of places in Portland where you could stroll around INSIDE looking cute?