God is a concept that has been distorted over the ages of humanity, because it has forgotten what it was. God, the ultimate force of this realm, is composed of layers of conscience; The Demi-gods and its angles....or its demons. When life is sparked on a planet two types of life are born. The provider (or host) and the result; the most evolved life-form from...
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direction. For the last 3 yrs I have lacked it. For some they would find that surprising due to the fact that I have aquired a career during that time. The problem is that I sold my acceptance of said career far to well. Truth be told I have never felt more lost. Meeting all of the expections required of me has cost me my...
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Everthing is everything
take the chain from around your soul
and everything means all the blame
take the shame and pour it down your throat
again amen
I am the end
again amen
I am
Yesterday is everyday
Who's to say how it would end
In all the ways I could have paid
In a way its better to decend
again amen
I am the...
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Been drinking for about 4 days now. I think im on my 5th bottle of maker's. Not writting much of anything. Played some guitar though. The roomate moved out so I have the house to myself. Its amazing howmuch wieght you lose when you dont eat so much. Miss the kids. You people take care of yourselves. I'll be around.

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Its the small things. A woman that squeezes you until your body compresses a bit inside and makes you wonder where her strength comes from. Small strong hands that massage with a life time of experience. So much so that when her fingers reach into your muscle time comes to a stop right along with your mind. A quick dry wit that takes you back...
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wow, havent been here in forever.

Working on my book. Drinking whisky. Eating lots of animals. I guess im back to my asshole self.

You stay out of trouble.

So....I have this roommate. Hippy chick, very nice girl. Just broke up with her man and its been the topic of conversation for the last few days. Its very platonic. She's short (5'2"?), long beautiful hair and generally....cute. As all of you know I have been a bit disfucntional when it comes to women. I have given up for the most part.

Last night I...
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The major news of this week would be that my window to reclass is open....and has been open since 0ct 1 (FY). Naturally, this is good news....it means 2 things. 1). that I have successfully survived in a social climate I was not intended to be in....im, infact, built to deconstruct such things. 2). That I can now move to the next phase of this...
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there is a theory that there are 10 dimensions to our reality. Apparently there is a lot of vibrating involved with this theory. I wont claim to completely understand it, but I do get the vibrating part. What ever frequency the military operates at make me completely insane. I am a square peg being jammed into a circular hole.

But out here in the woods...
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