Well, the relationship between me and the ex had a total meltdown...again. The same old points appeared. The same old responses took hold and the all familiar sense of "what the fuck do I say to that" came up like last nights dinner. I gave up. We are on "only speak when required." status. Naturally this is as a result of me trying to define things....stupid me. So, I want all of you to know that friendship actually means I dont appreicate or respect her and all I am concerned about is replacing her with some slut. Nice. Did I have a retort? Ofc, but stating it wouldnt have change a damn thing.
We have been apart since aug of 07, during that time I have not considered replacing her with this "slut" she keeps talking about....though I starting to think that might not be a bad idea. So now we can't be friends either, btw that was my choice and my fault, apparently. I have been searching through the records to find where I stated that, but my mental lawyers have adviced me to plead guilty, accept my sentence and enjoy my freedom. I am accpeting this counsel.
Now comes the real paperwork and the real court case....when the time is right. But since staying legally married is cheaper than private school (my sons are homeschooled) im in no rush. Its not in their best interests for me to pursue this legally. Seperate accounts will have to do for now.
The funny thing is this whole decade of wtf has me in anti-female mode. I can solve that problem all by myself...if ya know what I mean.
Freedom sucks.
UPDATE: April 20, 2009 12:12 Iraq time.
Im so fucking bitter. I have to admit it....and since im surrounded by 20 yr olds I have no one here to vent too. All I asked for was friendship and respect. She's getting a free ride and thats all I ask for in return. Now im stuck. I can't raise hell about it, and can't do anything to change things. Things are as such that its better for me to do nothing....which is my choice. I will not distrub my sons just so I can make a point or have a little more cash in my pocket. But wtf. This is comming to mean that I will get nothing for this deployment. Nothing. No car, no bike, no nothing. I will be on a 400 dollar a month budget so that she can do what she needs to do....but we arent fucking friends. This is maddness.
Yet, I cannot rock the boat, not now anyway. My sons need to be taught at home...at least for now. So this is the sacrifice I make for them. Ya it sucks and yest im super pissed, but it is what it is.
Leave starts May 3rd. I am not looking forward to being near her at all. She mention staying at a friends house while I was in town so I would have the boys. Let's pray for that.
We have been apart since aug of 07, during that time I have not considered replacing her with this "slut" she keeps talking about....though I starting to think that might not be a bad idea. So now we can't be friends either, btw that was my choice and my fault, apparently. I have been searching through the records to find where I stated that, but my mental lawyers have adviced me to plead guilty, accept my sentence and enjoy my freedom. I am accpeting this counsel.
Now comes the real paperwork and the real court case....when the time is right. But since staying legally married is cheaper than private school (my sons are homeschooled) im in no rush. Its not in their best interests for me to pursue this legally. Seperate accounts will have to do for now.
The funny thing is this whole decade of wtf has me in anti-female mode. I can solve that problem all by myself...if ya know what I mean.
Freedom sucks.
UPDATE: April 20, 2009 12:12 Iraq time.
Im so fucking bitter. I have to admit it....and since im surrounded by 20 yr olds I have no one here to vent too. All I asked for was friendship and respect. She's getting a free ride and thats all I ask for in return. Now im stuck. I can't raise hell about it, and can't do anything to change things. Things are as such that its better for me to do nothing....which is my choice. I will not distrub my sons just so I can make a point or have a little more cash in my pocket. But wtf. This is comming to mean that I will get nothing for this deployment. Nothing. No car, no bike, no nothing. I will be on a 400 dollar a month budget so that she can do what she needs to do....but we arent fucking friends. This is maddness.
Yet, I cannot rock the boat, not now anyway. My sons need to be taught at home...at least for now. So this is the sacrifice I make for them. Ya it sucks and yest im super pissed, but it is what it is.Leave starts May 3rd. I am not looking forward to being near her at all. She mention staying at a friends house while I was in town so I would have the boys. Let's pray for that.
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then she called Child Protective Services on him twice...his final breaking point was when she filed harrassment charges against him for calling her cell phone (she made him over 1/2 hour late to his job).
in her charges, stated that he was "suicidal"...the charges came around the same time of the anniversary of his father committing suicide (in 2004).
sometimes, its a matter of saying "enough". you're in a tough situation....could be a point where you say "we're civil for our child's sake" and that's it. she really complains or anything, get legal counsel and protect yourself. a lawyer does NOT mean divorce. but it does mean protection!
just my thoughts at least.
and yeah, no one to vent to really does suck sometimes!