threepattypixie

so...two days ago my sister left for dover, delaware to become a nun. it was really hard for me to see her go. i've been doing a lot of crying. i found out from a letter that the reason she is becoming a nun is to carry all the sins of our family with her to purify them and to suffer for us in order to save us. i was worried that that was the case. i didn't want her to do it for anyone else but herself. i know that i am a big reason since i do not believe in god. i miss her, i feel like i didn't have enough time with her. i feel guilty for staying away for so long. i never should have left my family. and now, it seems like we are really falling apart.

a good thing is that i have been talking to my dad. we are working on reconnecting. it's been nice. i missed him. i am no longer afraid of him. my therapist believes that i have made great progress but that i shouldn't let my guard down. that i should always stay alert. i don't think he'll hurt me again, but i understand that i have to be careful. i am happy that my dad and i are talking again.