thevulture

Thanks ♥

it helps to know i'm not alone in these crazy thoughts.

sometimes i feel like i know too much about how things work, this game of the world.. it's all fine until i realise that everything.. is NOTHING.. but really, nothing is EVERYTHING. you know? and i just can't seem to frolic with the pack and i always feel left out. but i don't want to fake it to fit in, so.. BLAH!




anyways!
i'm off to think some more, diary style!

talking with mahself.

have a good one ♥

Hey man,

Thanks for the insightful words. I totally agree that there isn't one person that can give you everything you want or need. The thing is finding which traits are more important and which you can do without. (also, there are bound to be other people in your life that can fill certain needs. ie. friends and family.)

I guess my dillemma is that I am attracted to a variety of very different girls for very different reasons, and I know that I'm not going to find everything in one girl. I guess I worry that I won't be strong enough to keep myself loyal to that one person. My Dad cheated on my Mom, and it brought my world crashing down around me. He was like superman to me, and realising his fallability was a big shock. (I guess every kid goes through the point at which they realise their parents aren't perfect.) The good thing about that situation is that I have been able to take his mistake, and learn from it. I see the ways in which I am like him, and of the things that I don't like, I can work to change in myself. Who knows, maybe looking at pictures on the internet is a good way of keeping myself from making a mistake in real life.

Also, Kudos to you for taking an honest look at things and figuring it out for yourself. Too many people just follow blindly, and go through the motions without actually knowing why.

What is the basis of Wing Chun? I don't think I'm familiar with that marital art. (Ha ha I mean martial arts.)

Edit- I checked my entry in Kanmis journal and found that I wrote
"This is not to say that you can find a good or even great love"

What I meant to say was
"This is not to say that you CAN'T find a good or even great love"

Oops, one missed letter really changes the point I was trying to make. I do mean to say that a relationship with another person can be very fulfilling. Just thought I'd clarify.

[Edited on Dec 15, 2004 6:50PM]

I did that with my tongue and nipple.. just decided one day that I didn't want them anymore.. still have 10..

are you sure that was wise at........ 6:45am?? i think it's kind of like drinking.. wait til noon at least...

I guess sometimes you just need a little change, kind of like rearranging furnature. I've heard that it's a sign of sexual frustration. (Maybe that's why my house is constantly changing)

Mysterious Goth girls are for sure intriguing. I love the whole goth lifestyle. I really would love to try it out, but it seems like too much work. Plus, it doesn't really match my lifestyle. I figure it destroys a Goths credibility to ride a sportbike. I don't think I have what it takes to be dark and depressed, cause I'm pretty fortunate and I try not to take that for granted. For sure it's a cool style, though.

Definitely, the idea of a girl that keeps to herself and hates going out in public appeals to me. I just don't know why she would decide to let me into her life, when she's perfectly happy by herself, (Maybe she isn't perfectly happy, I mean, who really is?) but I'm not really the pushy type. (or even the assertive type.) Plus I'm not fully confident that I have something to offer, so I generally just admire them from afar.

Maybe I should change my strategy.

speechless...i never took you for that type.

i really like talking about me and this is the only way to do it with out being intrupted by others.

That was damm well self centered. Good of me, at least i said it. Thanks i have learnt clarity now. This explains my enjoyment.

Anways it works both ways and i dont really think its totally self-center, cause if this were the fact, i dont think i would have taken to the time to read and write in you journal.

But i still like the uninterutped point.
You are to intelligent for your own good.

I'm actually not such a mean typist, I type very slow. I'm like an infinite # of monkeys on an infinite # of typewriters, trying to write the worlds greatest novel. That, and I have no life, so I can spend all night typing one word per minute.

What's a monkeytown. It sounds like it may contain traces of monkey.

I always figured the meaning of life was to live.

People stress about silly things sometimes.

Life how ever you chose to live it. It's your gift.

I'll start worrying more about the meaning of life if someone can first prove to me that there is one.

the world can be tragically unfair.

and rules are one example of this.

Dont worry life is long and it will eventualy come back to you

I cannot find that song to download but it sounds amazing!

can you send it to my gmail?
teresa.anna.mae@gmail.com

and if you don't have gmail and would like an invite i can hook you up

oh migosh the rentals i totally blocked that from my mind.
how very cool of you to remind me.

i lost it in class today..had this over wheming feeling that i needed to get laid. Right then and there. Bad timing, and since well i got no one to give it to me, i am oh so lonely. Too the shower for me.

There is this dude in my class who is oh so hot and totally tattoed. hes got a girl, but he like to mess with me i think.
then again it's probably my brain messing with me.

oh well...i hope you are having better luck than me, my Jedi Knight.