I actually skipped Wing Chun yesterday so I could have a big talk with my mom. Much needed. She was wondering why I had a low self-esteem and when I started alluding to the fact that she had something to do with it she got pissed saying I couldn't recognize all that she did and that I was just making stuff up. So I changed strategy. I started naming my "faults" and she agreed to all of them. I went through at least 15 items she's been disapointed with since growing up. After that I asked her to name things for which she was really proud of and she named three and then said the third one could be a fault. I asked her to list some more and she said can I think about it? Then I'm like "and she wonders why I have a low self-esteem". She raised me and although she never really put me down she criticized all the time. She was never satisfied. I think its starting to sink in.
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