Fuck everything.
I have been driven to completely give up in regards to work. The place makes me so unbelievably furious. I consistently have an urge to harm not just random customers, but also the people I work with. And, it's becoming far too challenging to hide my hatred. I really think it's about time that I start truly looking for a new place to get paid to waste my time.
I even start getting pissed off at my family, by proxy. I miss being happy. I can't even remember when the last time was that I actually felt it. That isn't even a lie. Oddly, I don't want to resort to drinking (in part because I can't afford it, currently).
I started working where I do because I liked watching movies, and I could actually have an opinion that people listened to (which sounds immensely conceited, but it just...made me feel like a person, for once. Long story). Then, I got recruited into a more responsible position in the same company. With that came angry customers yelling at me almost every day for roughly eight hours at a time. With more coworkers being trained to (not nearly) the same level I am at, the angry customers became fewer (due only to numerical averaging). Lately, with a change of appearance to the venue that affected the number of available posts to assist customers at, the anger has increased. And, with the coworkers I have, the customers simply become more engraged the moment they get "helped". Which ends up being aimed at me, when the issue is passed to me as the most senior/knowledgable person there. Or, I just become baffled by the utter bullshit my coworkers say. It's truly distressing. It all gave me a headache, today.
This isn't really what I had in mind.
I have been driven to completely give up in regards to work. The place makes me so unbelievably furious. I consistently have an urge to harm not just random customers, but also the people I work with. And, it's becoming far too challenging to hide my hatred. I really think it's about time that I start truly looking for a new place to get paid to waste my time.
I even start getting pissed off at my family, by proxy. I miss being happy. I can't even remember when the last time was that I actually felt it. That isn't even a lie. Oddly, I don't want to resort to drinking (in part because I can't afford it, currently).
I started working where I do because I liked watching movies, and I could actually have an opinion that people listened to (which sounds immensely conceited, but it just...made me feel like a person, for once. Long story). Then, I got recruited into a more responsible position in the same company. With that came angry customers yelling at me almost every day for roughly eight hours at a time. With more coworkers being trained to (not nearly) the same level I am at, the angry customers became fewer (due only to numerical averaging). Lately, with a change of appearance to the venue that affected the number of available posts to assist customers at, the anger has increased. And, with the coworkers I have, the customers simply become more engraged the moment they get "helped". Which ends up being aimed at me, when the issue is passed to me as the most senior/knowledgable person there. Or, I just become baffled by the utter bullshit my coworkers say. It's truly distressing. It all gave me a headache, today.
This isn't really what I had in mind.