I've chosen to leave behind all other social media outlets an use only this one. Why? I have no good Cingular reason, to many fake friends, to many statuses I cared nothing about. People talking about what they ate last night and with whom, and how cute their dog was. I give a shit not. Needless to say after canceling and deleting Facebook, Instagram, tumbler, and a couple of dating sights that ended up going no where no one has yet to notice my absence..........I've decided to focus my time here. It seem more of my place, more of the people I want to surround myself with. And who knows perhaps one day I will be fortunate enough to meet one of these amazing beautiful women and find love once again.........I find myself now in Colorado Springs alone, divorced not once but for a second time in my 32 years of life. Not a great situation I know. Sitting out on my apartment porch writing this I can hear a baby crying and it reminds of my son. He lives whit his mother in Austin. I miss him more than anything else in this world. I speak to him everyday but it's never enough. His mother left shortly after my medical retirement from the army. She said she just wasn't strong enough to deal with all that was going on whit me since I came back from my last tour in Afghanistan. I guess in a way I don't blam her much. I came back with a lot of mental baggage and some pretty bad injuries.......my first wife and were very short lived. We were both in the army together. We went on the same first deployment together, Iraq 15 months. When you and your wife go out on the same missions and see the same people you consider friends get killed over something that should not have happened in the first place. It tends to put a void in your marriage that may never be lifted......I don't know if that can be understood, but that's what happened.