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Bowling with the SG Sac folks was as fun as i hoped it'd be. A nice change from family. I discovered that i bowl better when tequila is involved. I still suck, but i suck less. Lobster_Mobster deserves all the thanks i can express for getting me back to Sac & supplying said tequila to the poor guy with little tangible cash, to say nothing of basically making sure that while i came off as a fool, i was a GOOD fool. Rode up with her & Amymay who's good people. Fun car ride. We met up with the delightful catagogo, then headed out to the bowling alley. I love seeing these people, because i've never had a group of people i liked all the way around who seemed to like me. That & i haven't had legit fun in quite some time, legit in the sense that it wasn't some bizarre act to amuse me. It was good fun, & hope to see them again. Might go the New Year's dealy, haven't decided yet. Anyway, weirdest moment was the creepy old guy who offered me licorice after walking from the entrance ALL THE WAY to our lane & kinda slithered by poor Toez. Haven't had that kind of thing happen since i've been here, & Toez is a trooper. Was great seeing her again too. Was great seeing everyone. Oh & congrats to Marge for destroying everyone. It was amazing to watch.

So, as i'm poor, i was panciking at the notion that my year on this site was ending next month, & i wouldn't have enough to cover renewing it. Figured i'd either drift back into the negative (December KILLED me, & i honestly don't know what i did differently than usual. Not happening again) or be forced to leave for a while, at least another month. But upon checking out the billing thing, i won't be billed again until July, which i'm surprised about but i'm not complaining. I think this had to do with changing my card when i got a new one over the summer. So yeah, i can stick around a little longer than i thought.

I believe Lobster has my electric flyswatter in her car. I would like it back soon.

The Vegas plans should be confirmed at least by tonight, & set in stone by tomorrow. I'm hoping to fly out between the third & fifth, & stay until the fifteenth at the latest (semester starts the sixteenth). I'm stoked about this, you have no idea. Only good can come from this trip. I've been promised as much. And honestly, i need a real vacation. The whole gambling & sex thing is just gravy.

In relation to the last post, i've had the last of my six epiphanies a year. The whole bit about fear of looking for something i'm not sure i believe in & finding a connection. I'll just know. If/When it happens, i'll just know. This is putting a lot of faith in my people reading abilities, but in my tequila induced state, it just dawned on me. This was, by the way, a fairly typical & slightly ironic time for such a thing to present itself. Par for the course, believe me. Anyway, i think the message was to not stop looking for an answer, just look at it from a new perspective. There are different types of answers, even if they're all the same thing. I think i have a less vague idea as to what my stance is. I'll just know. I think my New Year's Resolution is to just kinda keep trying, even if i don't know quite what i believe. I'll just know.

Thanks for the kind words about the story previously. Might post another one in a day or so, depending on how things go. Nothing good, i don't think, but something i'm working on. I've been trying lately to write down events that actually happened in such a way that it makes a decent enough story. Wrote one on a spur of the moment a few weeks ago that while in hindsight it's a little depressing is actually decent. And decent is as good as it takes.

I'm ending this now, because i'm really tired. It's so good to be home.