Urgh I am having a pretty hard time of it lately. I've been 6 months unemployed and 4 months without study because of a fuck up at my school. I'm starting to feel..traped and frustrated. I'm not one to sit idly, which can be bad because that leads to all kinds of over exercising under eating issues that crop up. I'm starting to rely too heavily on other people to entertain me, kind of like the puppy who sits around the house all day and then its like 'PEOPLE, OH MY GOD PEOPLE! PLAY?! PLAY!!!'.
That said my idle time has been put to good use creating a body that can only be described as a weapon. I'm actually starting to win grappling comps against the boy. I'm doing at least 100+ push ups every other day, running 5kms 5 days a week, have apretty hardcore weight circuit twice a week, plus the 7 days a week martial arts training. My abs are starting to look..well..not too bad, my arms are ripped (not in an ugly way) My legs have always looked pretty smoking. Its probably the first time in my life that i've actually impressed myself.
But that said, I have to beat down my ED Dark Passenger who keeps cropping up when the going gets tough with words of deadly advice 'just eat less, train more, go harder, run twice a day, who needs food anyway?'. Bastard of a thing. It put me in hospital not too long ago.
So in the chance of finding something (ANYTHING) to do I've been looking at acting workshops and the like. Who knows, Maybe I should just get back into my art. sigh.
That said my idle time has been put to good use creating a body that can only be described as a weapon. I'm actually starting to win grappling comps against the boy. I'm doing at least 100+ push ups every other day, running 5kms 5 days a week, have apretty hardcore weight circuit twice a week, plus the 7 days a week martial arts training. My abs are starting to look..well..not too bad, my arms are ripped (not in an ugly way) My legs have always looked pretty smoking. Its probably the first time in my life that i've actually impressed myself.
But that said, I have to beat down my ED Dark Passenger who keeps cropping up when the going gets tough with words of deadly advice 'just eat less, train more, go harder, run twice a day, who needs food anyway?'. Bastard of a thing. It put me in hospital not too long ago.
So in the chance of finding something (ANYTHING) to do I've been looking at acting workshops and the like. Who knows, Maybe I should just get back into my art. sigh.
saraberri:
thanks hon!