So, sleeping problems again. I met with my "current crush" yesterday after not seeing her all weekend. She told me about how her date on Saturday. To make a long story short: she didnt have any luck with the boy she was hitting on but found another and made out with him. Shes again head over heals in love with a testosterone-driven muscle-monster. I really...
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I did some updates to my homepage. It's not so freaking depressive anymore. (or at least a little less depressive)
Other than that I'm lazy today. I had only 3 hours sleep last night. I went to quite good party and stayed until 4:30 in the morning. Today I woke up as usual at 7:30 precisely. Damn those habits!
I currently spend a lot of...
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Other than that I'm lazy today. I had only 3 hours sleep last night. I went to quite good party and stayed until 4:30 in the morning. Today I woke up as usual at 7:30 precisely. Damn those habits!
I currently spend a lot of...
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rumpusparable:
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steffi11:
nun...- das klinkt schooon etwas hoffnungslos-
aber was solls, schlielich ist Sommer-
wird sich schon wer finden, der mit Dir rumspringen
mag- und knutschen usw.- was fr eine scheuliche Vorstellung,
Dir das Ohr abkauen zu lassen- uber einen Anderen!
Gre!
aber was solls, schlielich ist Sommer-
wird sich schon wer finden, der mit Dir rumspringen
mag- und knutschen usw.- was fr eine scheuliche Vorstellung,
Dir das Ohr abkauen zu lassen- uber einen Anderen!
Gre!
I like my new haircut.
Besides, it was the first time for at least 20 years that someone washed my hair for me. Till today, I always had it dry-cut. But NEVERMORE! I really enjoyed it, it's so relaxing.
Besides, it was the first time for at least 20 years that someone washed my hair for me. Till today, I always had it dry-cut. But NEVERMORE! I really enjoyed it, it's so relaxing.
sakita:
oh my goodness..when i moved here and started reading swedish i thought all my german had flown out the door, but then my mom got letters from some one in the family that was from 1890's and it was german..and i translated it..with the help of a dictionary...
and then you answer me in german
and oh my god
i understood you!!!
i didnt need to look it up
its still there.
oh hugs and kisses for you
me
and then you answer me in german
and oh my god
i understood you!!!
i didnt need to look it up
its still there.
oh hugs and kisses for you
me
Why do I keep falling in love with women that take no interest in me? This way I'll never end the loneliness of my heart. This sucks big time. I hate 
myself for this stupidity.
myself for this stupidity.
sakita:
you are not the only one that falls in love with people
who take no interest!
ive done it before and it hurts huh?
but you know some day you will find the best girl in the world i think!!!!
hugs!!!
who take no interest!
ive done it before and it hurts huh?
but you know some day you will find the best girl in the world i think!!!!
hugs!!!
swen:
Thanks Sakita, that's sweet of you. But my time is sort of running out. I won't wait forever for that "some day". I just can't live this sad existence much longer.
[Edited on Jun 17, 2003]
[Edited on Jun 17, 2003]
Could somebody please teach me how to cry?
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pinkisux:
when i want to cry and can't seem to i just listen to a lot of either cursive or depeche mode and take a hot shower or bath.... the tears seem to start flowing... or get drunk off nyquil. depends on the day.
swen:
Well, I tried that. Didn't work. But thanks for the hint.
Shall I take the train
Or rather cut my vein
I could just take those pills
It is the whish that kills
Whats the point in trying
When all my hopes are dying
Ill never have the slightest chance
To join the peoples joyful dance
All around theres happy chatter
And even I sometimes get better
But when Im bold enough to join
Im always...
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Or rather cut my vein
I could just take those pills
It is the whish that kills
Whats the point in trying
When all my hopes are dying
Ill never have the slightest chance
To join the peoples joyful dance
All around theres happy chatter
And even I sometimes get better
But when Im bold enough to join
Im always...
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Anyone else pissed off because of my rapidly changing mood? Then just stop reading my journal. I don't think that it'll get any better. Ever.
jovana:
...thank you
The last couple of day I was really flying high. Then I needed to get down on my feet again, live my life rather than flying over it. But that landing part didnt work out for me.
I crashed.
Now Im crawling on my broken bones again, still trying to get up, despite my broken wings.
I crashed.
Now Im crawling on my broken bones again, still trying to get up, despite my broken wings.
I'm having myself a hell of a good time! Some learning on the side, ok. But there was a real big thundersorm today! Temperature droped from 33 Celsius to 16. And there were cool lightnings all over the pitch black sky. A great show!
I did some more kazaa downloading inspired by last night's partie's playlist. Made a nice goth-CD:
Skinny Puppy: Assimilate
Skinny Puppy:...
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I did some more kazaa downloading inspired by last night's partie's playlist. Made a nice goth-CD:
Skinny Puppy: Assimilate
Skinny Puppy:...
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deathboy:
I just wanted to say that HELLOWEEN RULES!
Some good tunes I see that you downloaded.
Im going to see cradle of filth next month here in portland. in fact a friend of mine is their tour manager for ozzfest. Check out hellowee's new cd "Rabbit dont come easy" its amazing! Rock on!
BRYAN
Some good tunes I see that you downloaded.
Im going to see cradle of filth next month here in portland. in fact a friend of mine is their tour manager for ozzfest. Check out hellowee's new cd "Rabbit dont come easy" its amazing! Rock on!
BRYAN
sakita:
that is an amazing list of music you made.
it is raining here too...which stinks cuz i really want to ride my bike.
yeah the name thing throws me off too, i dont understand him but..who does.
oh well
have a great thunderstormy day.
ellie
it is raining here too...which stinks cuz i really want to ride my bike.
yeah the name thing throws me off too, i dont understand him but..who does.
oh well
have a great thunderstormy day.
ellie
Wheehoo! 5 hours sleep in the last three days. And I'm still not exhausted!
Friday night I had the whole bunch of RPG-nerds over at my place. We listened some cool music (thanks Katie and Polly) and got slightly drunk on beer, whine and bowmore-scotch; big discussions until 7 AM.
Intermission 1: 2h sleep.
Get up, shower and buy groceries for the weekend/holiday ahead and...
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Friday night I had the whole bunch of RPG-nerds over at my place. We listened some cool music (thanks Katie and Polly) and got slightly drunk on beer, whine and bowmore-scotch; big discussions until 7 AM.
Intermission 1: 2h sleep.
Get up, shower and buy groceries for the weekend/holiday ahead and...
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I finally enrolled for my exams in august. Now there's no turning back.
I just hope I can keep up with the learning. Motivation is becoming a serious problem after six weeks of book-eating.
Thanks Polly, "Happy House" actually helped, at least a little. Your gorgeous set did too, just a lot more!
I just hope I can keep up with the learning. Motivation is becoming a serious problem after six weeks of book-eating.
Thanks Polly, "Happy House" actually helped, at least a little. Your gorgeous set did too, just a lot more!
polly:
Happy House is the raddest of the rad.
xoxo
xoxo
And life it shall wane
Each night I cry in pain
And blood tears I cry
Endless grief remained inside
Cut off your [old friends] hand
[from: Blood Tears by Blind Guardian]
Each night I cry in pain
And blood tears I cry
Endless grief remained inside
Cut off your [old friends] hand
[from: Blood Tears by Blind Guardian]
polly:
listen to Happy House by Souxie and you will feel happy.
xoxo
xoxo
i had a huge crush on my best friend for 10 years, but he decided for me that i only saw him as a brother... so i can understand.
you are strong! and you can continue being strong i know it
hugs!