sullengirl

"I hear I'm not nice- but this is what I'm getting at. My nice is not everyone else's nice and it gets frustrating and tiring trying to be that nice, so when I'm just my nice I'm being a bitch. Cause I'm not keeping up to par- following?"

Do I follow? Are you kidding me???

For the first time in my life I think I've found something to relate to.

It's like no one is searching for truth anymore...like everyone is just dandy with their illusions and that's fucking freaky.

So when you try to keep it real everyone is like 'loosen up, have fun' and it's like 'look fuckers don't you get that it's all crashing down around us???' but everyone is all 'well eat drink and be merry for tomorrow we die' and I think that is just such bullshit myself.

What ever happened to the pusuit of life? Why am I surrounded by idiotic hedonists?

Don't you just love it when one of them hits a down point and you want to be like 'I told you so fucker' but you know if you said that they would probably kill themselves.

*sigh* it's sucks to be smart.

You've got it. People live their whole lives without gaining as mature of a view as you have. Are you really 18? j/k

You'll be fine. Just keep doing what you're doing. You'll find your notch.