been kind of luking in the background of everything on here lately.....after reading a freinds blog it kind of hit me how lonely and depressed i am. been layed up in this house for a year now, helping my mom at first with her medical problems, then dad when he was diagnosed with cancer also. now with my back gone out and two back surgeries... Read More
I wish I had some kind of words of inspiration for you. Sadly I'm not an eloquent person.
Know that at 18, although he might not admit it, he does love you, no matter how hard he is to deal with.
Your parents love you too. Unconditionally.
Giving up can often seem enticing. Lord knows I've been there. Sometimes you have to hold on, not for your own sake, but for the sake of those who love you. And in the end it all becomes worth it.
I'm so sorry about all you're going through. I know we haven't interacted signicantly here but I've faced some similar things to what you're going through, both with terminally ill parents and with unimaginable Pain, so if you need to vent, you can always PM me or comment in m,y journal. I'm posting below what I posted in the Geezers Group, since you said you were leaving there:
I hope you get through everything you're facing all right. I had no idea about anything yo're going through (with my slowass webernet connection I usually only see/post in a few threads here and there).
I left my Life in NJ in '93 to carefor my Dad for 8 years (lost him in '01), so I truly do feel for you.
Feel free to message me any time if you need to vent.
well surgery is over (its been a week now) and still not sure if its better or not. still cant tell if the tattoo is torn up or not, they did a good job last time so hopefully it is ok.
nothing else is going on....been pretty boring around here except for the medical stuff with me and my parents. mom is not doing very... Read More
No. I went alone. I went to work with a traditional Mexican midwife for a month in Morelos. I just went to learn. I lived with her family. It was amazing. I learned so much about traditional healing. I got out a bit here and there to do other things too.
well i just figured i would say hi and that im sorry if i havnt been commenting on your blogs. i have kind of been down lately.....been in alot of pain and it is just really (finally) getting to me. i really havent been doing much on here or anywhere else (ddo, pokerstars ect.).
been spending time with my mom lately....talking and just being with... Read More
the doctor says i am going to have surgery on feb 22 so hopefully this one will help with all the pain. lets keep our fingers crossed. one thing he said he is going to do is replace some of the screws with shorter ones because it looks like one of them is rubbing on a nerve in my back. lets hope that maybe that... Read More
Thank you!
OMGoddess, you're getting surgery! I've worked minor miracles with energy healing, but if the screws really are too long they will need to be adjusted.
its been a weird year so far. i have been changing emotionally that much i know, and hopefully for the better. it is really weird and so strange for me to say it........hell i dont know if it is because of my parents condition, my condition or a combinatioin of everything. hell i cry at movies now where i would not have even blinked an... Read More
*stomps around* I do what I want! I don't *know* who I am, that's the problem! If I'm going pink, I want to pick something I want to be stuck with forever and ever! The only way I'll know is to try stuff out! So there!
When will you know about another surgery? We believe we'll know where we're going by the end of March, but I want to apply soon so I can still get in for fall semester.
i wanted to thank everyone for sending me messages telling me that they were thinking of me. it has been a rough couple weeks for me. i really dont know what is the matter. i physically am so tired and in alot of pain. mentally i am confused about whats going on and again tired and wore out. i think with me just not being... Read More
ive just read about 2 lil young girls from here who passed away...
woooo it really shaked my brains
fuck life can be gone as fast as a snap of fingers
shittt
how are ay doin?? i have read your blog, i wish i could live closer and take u out tonite...im sick tho haha
i really admire you and yr strenght!!!!!!!! u have my respect!!!!
a big kisssss and wish a rock n rolll 2008 and all the happyness u deserve!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i just havent been feeling well, physically and emotionally. i am really just bone tired physically and im worn out. seem like i am waiting for something but dont kow what.....
the doctors took me off my newest pain meds.....seems like i was having some sort of reaction to them....but i do go back in friday... Read More
i am so tired. just bone deep tired. tired of fighting to do the right things. tired of supporting people and things. it is so bad that i dont even have the strength to type my support for a friend. i hate winter and the cold which makes things even worse. i could just sleep forever right now.
made it through testing today.......830am to 2pm.....really sucked. seems like the numbing medicine decided not to work today so the needle in the spine thing was definately felt.....and it sucked. not feeling well right now so i think im going to try to sleep.
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Know that at 18, although he might not admit it, he does love you, no matter how hard he is to deal with.
Your parents love you too. Unconditionally.
Giving up can often seem enticing. Lord knows I've been there. Sometimes you have to hold on, not for your own sake, but for the sake of those who love you. And in the end it all becomes worth it.
I hope you get through everything you're facing all right. I had no idea about anything yo're going through (with my slowass webernet connection I usually only see/post in a few threads here and there).
I left my Life in NJ in '93 to carefor my Dad for 8 years (lost him in '01), so I truly do feel for you.
Feel free to message me any time if you need to vent.