I'm torn between saying that everything is different and that nothing has changed. I'm not sure which is more of the truth.
I'm such a creature of habit, and yet I hate the humdrum mundane. Every day I take the same bus to work, I work the same hours every week, I never take break. Once I find a new place I like to go, I seem to only go there all the time, even if I stop liking it. Same thing with foods. I bought this shitty yogurt that I didn't really like for months because it's just what I picked up once and I kept buying it. I didn't even think to try something else! How blind.
Lately though, because of my great antsiness with how boring things are getting, I've decided to start taking different busses, start going to coffee shops I've never been to, walking a different way home. I've also decided to be a bit more impulsive and decisive. Not everything needs to be justified to another person. Not everything requires rationalizing before I do it.
So far, so... whatever. (Not good or bad, just is.) I'm not going to talk about it more, because that would be more rationalizing than the small things need. They're my things to do. If I don't want to do something and see no reason why I should, I won't do it. If I honestly don't care, then whatever, let someone else decide, otherwise, I'm just going to chose something and stick with it.
I hope this lasts. (I have a small edge of "fuck you" right now for whatever reason.)
I'm such a creature of habit, and yet I hate the humdrum mundane. Every day I take the same bus to work, I work the same hours every week, I never take break. Once I find a new place I like to go, I seem to only go there all the time, even if I stop liking it. Same thing with foods. I bought this shitty yogurt that I didn't really like for months because it's just what I picked up once and I kept buying it. I didn't even think to try something else! How blind.
Lately though, because of my great antsiness with how boring things are getting, I've decided to start taking different busses, start going to coffee shops I've never been to, walking a different way home. I've also decided to be a bit more impulsive and decisive. Not everything needs to be justified to another person. Not everything requires rationalizing before I do it.
So far, so... whatever. (Not good or bad, just is.) I'm not going to talk about it more, because that would be more rationalizing than the small things need. They're my things to do. If I don't want to do something and see no reason why I should, I won't do it. If I honestly don't care, then whatever, let someone else decide, otherwise, I'm just going to chose something and stick with it.
I hope this lasts. (I have a small edge of "fuck you" right now for whatever reason.)