Lately I feel like everyone hates me, and that everying I do is wrong. I constantly fuck things up without rvrn trying. Even when Im trying to be good n do the right things, everything goes to hell.
Wendsday i had two pretty big fights with Nathan, both resulting in abnormally long anxiety attacks. So, I went to the ER since my mom was worried. They gave me ativan (I now loove ativan) and a prescription for 5 more (now 4 left).
I tell my friends on SP about this whooole thing, do they care? No, not really. Only 2 or 3 said anything.
I feel so ignored there lately, more than usual. But im trying not to let it get to me.
Tonight, I called Nathan and told him I thought I need another pill, n told him why. I didnt cry or anything, I sounds calm. He got pissed at me for upsetting him before he goes out. He totally guilt trips me and makes me feel like a horrible person. HE did this full well knowing I was having an anxiety attack, and he made it worse.
He needs to learn how to express himself better.
Wendsday i had two pretty big fights with Nathan, both resulting in abnormally long anxiety attacks. So, I went to the ER since my mom was worried. They gave me ativan (I now loove ativan) and a prescription for 5 more (now 4 left).
I tell my friends on SP about this whooole thing, do they care? No, not really. Only 2 or 3 said anything.
I feel so ignored there lately, more than usual. But im trying not to let it get to me.
Tonight, I called Nathan and told him I thought I need another pill, n told him why. I didnt cry or anything, I sounds calm. He got pissed at me for upsetting him before he goes out. He totally guilt trips me and makes me feel like a horrible person. HE did this full well knowing I was having an anxiety attack, and he made it worse.
He needs to learn how to express himself better.
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shescrafty:
Awww thanks luv. i know you do
daniyell:
i care too! did you mention something on SP? I think that people just aren't paying too much attention to the site anymore, not to you! we love you!!! 