Velvet. Soft things. Tendernesses exchanged remain in my memories.
One moment or one hundred. They remain with me, locked away for my joy alone.
Velvet. Soft things. Tendernesses exchanged remain in my memories.
One moment or one hundred. They remain with me, locked away for my joy alone.
Currents toss me about, to and fro. My compass spins without stopping. I have no direction, no guidance, no need. The pull of waters guides me past rocks, through rivers, beyond lakes, out to the open sea. And then on the ocean, night falls, and I see the sun set along a horizon stretching to infinity.
Where are all the other people in this world....
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Where are all the other people in this world....
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Soft breaths entwined.
I feel like I've finally met a piece of the Sophia.
Joy has never known a grander boundary in my heart.
My passion is enflamed. I am completely consumed.
How I would like to discard this flesh and be accepting and loving all at once. Great arms of pure love entwining myself around another.
Being, Time, all is consumed by Nothingness. Soft,...
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I feel like I've finally met a piece of the Sophia.
Joy has never known a grander boundary in my heart.
My passion is enflamed. I am completely consumed.
How I would like to discard this flesh and be accepting and loving all at once. Great arms of pure love entwining myself around another.
Being, Time, all is consumed by Nothingness. Soft,...
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joyrider:
it is a good feeling!
it is a good feeling!Hm. i update today because i will be away now for about 3 weeks with only sporadic internet access.
Thoughts from today. I love driving. Especially at night on long stretches of highway. Just me and the radio. It's so incredibly peaceful, and I can sing along to the radio without anyone being able to tell. teehee.
College loans are evil. So very evil. I...
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Thoughts from today. I love driving. Especially at night on long stretches of highway. Just me and the radio. It's so incredibly peaceful, and I can sing along to the radio without anyone being able to tell. teehee.
College loans are evil. So very evil. I...
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joyrider:
few things compare to an empty desert interstate at 3am. a good stereo in the car doesn't hurt.
Thinking about life now.
Passion pleases me. Letting life like water, fill me to the brim with sensations and emotions. Letting my cells saturate with pure raw primal-ness.
Sadly, after 2? 3? weeks of trying for passion I have found that the search for passion displeases me. The pursuit itself fills me with a great sense of revulsion.
The feeling of desire for a woman,...
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Passion pleases me. Letting life like water, fill me to the brim with sensations and emotions. Letting my cells saturate with pure raw primal-ness.
Sadly, after 2? 3? weeks of trying for passion I have found that the search for passion displeases me. The pursuit itself fills me with a great sense of revulsion.
The feeling of desire for a woman,...
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dia:
I just melted everywhere... everywhere... you'll have to very gently scrape me back up and pour me back into my bottle.
shachia:
i'm sure I can find a wonderful bottle to return you to. A little time in the refrigerator will deal with that melting too...
Away: I'm off to western Massachusetts for 3.5 weeks to help run dining for the Tanglewood Music program. Woohoo. I don't think I'll have internet access during that time.
Ah well.
hugs
Ah well.
hugs
I want a kitty. Really bad. Cats are the one remaining bit of hope I have, that maybe, the universe has some small bit of joy left in it.
Also, there is no end to my boredom. My roommate will not leave the house unless it is with his girlfriend. My other friends all live in NH, and are not typically available. Damn this world....
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Also, there is no end to my boredom. My roommate will not leave the house unless it is with his girlfriend. My other friends all live in NH, and are not typically available. Damn this world....
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I'm reading Astronomy magazine now. It makes me stop and ponder. Scientific method has indicated the age of our
universe is 13-14 billion years. That's incredibly old, but the universe will continue on for billions more years
than even that. Solar masses will cool, energy dissipate into the vast expanse, and eventually the entire universe
will essentially be "dead" to complete chaos.
And for a...
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universe is 13-14 billion years. That's incredibly old, but the universe will continue on for billions more years
than even that. Solar masses will cool, energy dissipate into the vast expanse, and eventually the entire universe
will essentially be "dead" to complete chaos.
And for a...
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Hm. This weekend was excellent. I went out and spent time with my friends Derek and Ben. Had fun. Nothing useful or informative has happened in my life in that time.
I told a friend on Friday that I liked her and would be interested in pursuing something beyond friendship if she were interested. She didn't quite say no. It was more along the lines...
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I told a friend on Friday that I liked her and would be interested in pursuing something beyond friendship if she were interested. She didn't quite say no. It was more along the lines...
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joyrider:
i'd point you towards tantrayana, but it's big on lineage and having a teacher, and i get the impression you're going this alone. you're bet bet is to start pilfering ideologies - check out hinduism, sufism, read some hakim bey (esp. TAZ), and maybe even delve a bit into Thelemic study and maybe more Gnostic texts (although if i recall you already probably know a great deal about gnosticism).
shachia:
heh. Gnosticism is the one thing I know anything about. besides maybe cats. My next journal entry was going to be a long one about silly gnostic crap. Maybe I'll still finish it when I'm actually awake someday.
This is a meaningless journal entry at heart.
Tonight I was thinking about passion while I was out driving. I mean, I'd say I'm passionate about cooking. Or i feel passion towards a woman I'm in love with, or old Passion Plays, or extreme emotion.
I think sometimes I feel confused by a swell of emotion mixing around in me. I would say in general...
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Tonight I was thinking about passion while I was out driving. I mean, I'd say I'm passionate about cooking. Or i feel passion towards a woman I'm in love with, or old Passion Plays, or extreme emotion.
I think sometimes I feel confused by a swell of emotion mixing around in me. I would say in general...
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thejackal:
i may not know what im talking about..or just be plain full of shit... but my favorite use for the word passion is as such:
"poetry with me is not a PURPOSE, but a PASSION.." -EA Poe
to be passionate does not mean, that to have this thing or whatever is a goal in life...but it is the vehicle and the fuel that burns within you and drives you to and through whatever goals you have set for yourself.
Fuck balance, humans are the only creatures whose nature is not one of balance, otherwise we'd be living in bushes instead of cutting them down for houses.
we ARE the only ceatures on the planet that can truly be passionate about something. but then again, i may just be full of shit.
"never give yourself a reason to not continue...never give yourself and excuse for mediocrity and never, may i say never ever give up."
(actually that me quoting myself from one of my poems"
thej//ackal
"poetry with me is not a PURPOSE, but a PASSION.." -EA Poe
to be passionate does not mean, that to have this thing or whatever is a goal in life...but it is the vehicle and the fuel that burns within you and drives you to and through whatever goals you have set for yourself.
Fuck balance, humans are the only creatures whose nature is not one of balance, otherwise we'd be living in bushes instead of cutting them down for houses.
we ARE the only ceatures on the planet that can truly be passionate about something. but then again, i may just be full of shit.
"never give yourself a reason to not continue...never give yourself and excuse for mediocrity and never, may i say never ever give up."
(actually that me quoting myself from one of my poems"
thej//ackal
joyrider:
nice talking to you the other night. i thought you might like this:
http://www.snakecharmer.net/text/tao.txt
good luck with passion and balance. if you figure it out, let me know. i could use a clue myself.
http://www.snakecharmer.net/text/tao.txt
good luck with passion and balance. if you figure it out, let me know. i could use a clue myself.
This new site is very rockin'. O, spooky, missy, rock my world.
As for personal nonsense, I am enjoying an entire summer of laziness and vacation time. Thank god for suicidegirls boards I would be one bored monkey.
As for personal nonsense, I am enjoying an entire summer of laziness and vacation time. Thank god for suicidegirls boards I would be one bored monkey.