so i am stuck in a rut...... and i diont get it.
it just hit me clear as day, and now i forget.......
and now i am fucking pissed cause my broswer keeps crashing,,,,, it was a song,,, (i'm burning a cd,,, and its nothing but slow sad depressing songs.... you would think it would be hard to find 100 plus of those...) and this one song summerd it perfectly.... something about being to busy thinking baout life that you arent living it....... not being able to enjoy the hear and now, always second guessing, always seening eveything else as better,,, or i shoudl be doing better,, or i could be doing better... arrrggghhh.....
so aggravating at the moment,, especially while watching 9/11 tributes...... looking at people that have true adversity to overcome,,,, and i cant even over come myself......
blah blah blah......... broekn record........
it just hit me clear as day, and now i forget.......
and now i am fucking pissed cause my broswer keeps crashing,,,,, it was a song,,, (i'm burning a cd,,, and its nothing but slow sad depressing songs.... you would think it would be hard to find 100 plus of those...) and this one song summerd it perfectly.... something about being to busy thinking baout life that you arent living it....... not being able to enjoy the hear and now, always second guessing, always seening eveything else as better,,, or i shoudl be doing better,, or i could be doing better... arrrggghhh.....
so aggravating at the moment,, especially while watching 9/11 tributes...... looking at people that have true adversity to overcome,,,, and i cant even over come myself......
blah blah blah......... broekn record........
have u checked already out anything bout work or a flat??
amigo..do u want to write me a letter??
i wanna do it and i wanna send you a cd..what do you think??
its weekend start today...i fear it a lil bit..we organize a party tomorrow...i tell u the last year i was very stucked to alcohol and drugs alot...i feel so guilty...i wanna change it...really..now i feel it and tomorrow im going to have a few beers and joints and thats it...
so good luck for you too!!!