samling

had a good night tonight.

i know in a recent journal entry, i was all about hating people and not letting people in anymore, but tonight threw it back into perspective for me. i think the reason i'm in this world sometimes is to remind the bitter or the hurting people that there is someone who is capable of caring about them. i guess i just get mad because there are so very few people who recipricate that to me.

but i got to hang out with one of my very favorite people in the world tonight, and it reminded me all over again why i've never gotten hard or jaded. i may have small glimpses of it now and then, but it's never long lasting. my kindrid spirits need me to be the calm voice. not the "fuck you and the goat you rode in on!!!"

i hope my friend helps their current situation. i never expect people to take my advice, but i know they listen and sometimes learn a little from it. hopefully for a positive effect, but if nothing else, but to give me a reason to come to their neck of the woods to remind them how valid they are and that they are loved.