my best friend has run off with her ex-bf.
i havent seen her since sunday, and have only talked to her for maybe 5 minutes since then. i feel like she's become a different person. im amazed by how quickly she changed. i just wish she would explain to me what shes feeling. i only want to know whats going on inside her head. i told her thats shes making shitty decisions but she doesnt listen to anyone, not me, not her sister, not her mom. i did everything for her. i took her to work, picked her up, took her to do laundry, etc etc etc. we hung out all day everyday, and now its like none of that ever mattered. shes been staying with her ex since saturday. sitting in his dark basement apartment that he doesnt pay for. wasting away. sleeping all day and being up all night. i want to tell her how this is affecting me. i dont know if she'll even take me seriously. you dont do this to your friends. i want only the best for her because she deserves good things in her life, this, however, is not the best thing for her. in fact its the worst thing she could do. i want to fucking shake her so hard. my thoughts are racing around my head and i cant put them in any kind of order. she told me she wants to feel comfortable being with someone again, so she runs off with her ex. she dumped him because he was such a bum, hes still a bum. the way she says it makes me feel like everyday we spent together was nothing. like i didnt make her feel anything. like the whole time we were together all she thought about was being with someone else. even though she always said the opposite. i guess she was lying, or faking it. she told me once that everyone is faking something. i guess i shouldve realized that she was too. i love her too much to watch go back down the path she was going down. at the same time, i wish i didnt love her so much because this wouldnt be killing me like it is.
i havent seen her since sunday, and have only talked to her for maybe 5 minutes since then. i feel like she's become a different person. im amazed by how quickly she changed. i just wish she would explain to me what shes feeling. i only want to know whats going on inside her head. i told her thats shes making shitty decisions but she doesnt listen to anyone, not me, not her sister, not her mom. i did everything for her. i took her to work, picked her up, took her to do laundry, etc etc etc. we hung out all day everyday, and now its like none of that ever mattered. shes been staying with her ex since saturday. sitting in his dark basement apartment that he doesnt pay for. wasting away. sleeping all day and being up all night. i want to tell her how this is affecting me. i dont know if she'll even take me seriously. you dont do this to your friends. i want only the best for her because she deserves good things in her life, this, however, is not the best thing for her. in fact its the worst thing she could do. i want to fucking shake her so hard. my thoughts are racing around my head and i cant put them in any kind of order. she told me she wants to feel comfortable being with someone again, so she runs off with her ex. she dumped him because he was such a bum, hes still a bum. the way she says it makes me feel like everyday we spent together was nothing. like i didnt make her feel anything. like the whole time we were together all she thought about was being with someone else. even though she always said the opposite. i guess she was lying, or faking it. she told me once that everyone is faking something. i guess i shouldve realized that she was too. i love her too much to watch go back down the path she was going down. at the same time, i wish i didnt love her so much because this wouldnt be killing me like it is.