insomnia sucks ass. i think it's stress related. i have a new version of the software i oversee being released this week, which is definitely adding to my general stress level. plus, i need to find some lucid time during the day to write -- afterall, i wouldn't be much of a storyteller if i didn't spend time writing stories. 
hopefully after this weekend it'll all calm down and i can get back into a normal routine.
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on a side note -- i'd like to say that a lot of what's great about this site isn't as heavily advertised (obviously) as the lovely SG bewbies. what i've enjoyed the most is discovering just how common some of my sexual hang ups are in a community filled with people that have common interests outside of just PSFB adoration.
having grown up in the bible belt where all my friends and family are highly conservative, it's easy to not come to terms with one's own sexuality and kinks. it's easier to just feel guilty about it all, bury it deep down inside, and pretend that that's the way it's really supposed to be. what's sad about that -- is that while i've been bred to feel guilty (even if that wasn't an express intent) most of what gets me going is actually VERY common. things like:
1. light bondage during foreplay
2. roleplaying
3. voyeurism (and who in the internet-age isn't a voyeur anyway?)
4. exhibitionism
5. having my ass played with
in the bible belt, these are all no-no's. but dammit all -- they're normal and i refuse to feel guilty or hide from them any longer. that's just no way to go through life. can i get an amen?
hopefully after this weekend it'll all calm down and i can get back into a normal routine.
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on a side note -- i'd like to say that a lot of what's great about this site isn't as heavily advertised (obviously) as the lovely SG bewbies. what i've enjoyed the most is discovering just how common some of my sexual hang ups are in a community filled with people that have common interests outside of just PSFB adoration.
having grown up in the bible belt where all my friends and family are highly conservative, it's easy to not come to terms with one's own sexuality and kinks. it's easier to just feel guilty about it all, bury it deep down inside, and pretend that that's the way it's really supposed to be. what's sad about that -- is that while i've been bred to feel guilty (even if that wasn't an express intent) most of what gets me going is actually VERY common. things like:
1. light bondage during foreplay
2. roleplaying
3. voyeurism (and who in the internet-age isn't a voyeur anyway?)
4. exhibitionism
5. having my ass played with
in the bible belt, these are all no-no's. but dammit all -- they're normal and i refuse to feel guilty or hide from them any longer. that's just no way to go through life. can i get an amen?
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dinah:
I've been discovering this stuff all my life, and with every new partner, I find something quite surprising. Like the ass thing. Yeah. Never knew it could feel good, but sometimes you gotta explore new things.
dinah:
Well, then, it's all about using protection and getting the other interested pary to take an std test before fucking around. That's really all you can do. But, yeah, std's are scary shit for sure.