How can I overcome this problem without therapy?
When I was younger, my father told me I was a moron because my school work wasn’t done after only 20 minutes.
He was a verbally abusive father and while he never hit me he did go after my two older half brothers
Fast forward a few years (2010-2011) my parents had been divorced for over a...
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I find it increasingly hard to ignore the fact that most people only need me when it’s convenient.
I am not to be taken lightly my asshole side is a side you don’t want to mess with. My villain arc will begin now
I sit on the edge of the abyss and watch as the world turns from light to darkness.
I can not help but recite in my mind the horrors the have led us here
The last bit of my empathy pours out into the streets like a river.
In the end the solemnity is laughable and the darkness pierces my eyes
The animal they thought...
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Any guesses where I am lol
So I haven’t been very active here recently.
the last two years have been rough ones.
Pandemic and all.
In May I took a spill at work dislocated my ankle and fractured my heel bone.
Not all bad found a couple of niche communities on TikTok. Cosplay and Kink mostly
The vastness of the grin
Is an illusion
My mind feeds upon itself
As I wear a paper smile
Don’t let the tears destroy it
Why do I need happy
I never receive it back
I wear the paper smile
To hide my imperfections
Tears flowing like Niagara Falls
Tearing on my paper smile
The world will never know
If I just keep the paper...
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So my birthday is upon me and this year is unique because I almost lost my father this year.
But at 35 and single just not sure if I am gonna find a lover( no just a sex thing) anytime soon. Working 40+ doesn’t help either
Reapercrm Photography So I had my first shoot today for a local cover band pro bono of course as I am just starting out and my moms boyfriend is in the band
I just recently ordered a camera and gonna start my new hobby of photography.
I am not gonna expect to be the best. I will start lightly with natural images and maybe start doing full photo shoots if I am any good.
I am not advertising photography by me just excited to see how this adventure goes
So the last 4 days of have been rough and super long. Sunday I receive a call my dad had at heart attack. After four days he has had 2 heart attacks and about 4-5 cardiac arrest events. He is still not breathing on his own and not sure if he is going to be able to just hard to distract my mind
Here I sit still all alone
Nothing to show for my life
34 years old and single
Not where I thought I’d be
I can feel impending doom
Depression setting in
With little to hold on to
I just want hold my head high
Sadly it’s filled with lead