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i am posting from parking lot of oakland coliseum, i haven't slept and i drunk and stoned and full of vegan bar-b-que, i have managed to avoid hard drugs, but you never know how long the vegan food can last under these circumstances, i actually cheated and had some honey, poor lil' bees, so i might just be around the corner from a crack hit or walkin' the dog, jus' kiddin', i feel like i can't change the journal entry until i go to sleep and another day has started, i'm a wierdo, my friend has a buch of cuban fronte leaf that he brought back from miami, i have been smoking these all night, it really keys me because i don't smoke cigs so i am sensitive to nico. i have smoked every kind of herb that my friend could bring from his job at"the club", hash, too. i am a happy manic dep. sociopath right now. well, just told a couple of girls that they couldn't smoke speed in my suv and they got all pissed and started tellin' me i was fucked for having an suv and i was like "but you wouldn't have said anything if i woulda let you hit that glass in here?" and they were like "hippocrit" and i was like "fuck you, eat somethin' and go to sleep ya skinny bitches"and there was a long moment of silence and then everybody around, including the girls started laughing hysterically and i felt like oh yeah, i'll be here all week thank you, but still, i traded in my v8 for a 6 cyl. and that was my attempt and as soon as that fuel cell suv is ready, ya know? feel me? i am pretty fucked up right now, bad man a bad man, peace, raze the mountains for the freeways...jus' kiddin'

Mud Pie got some in its eye thats fer sure...this city is going through cultural growing pains with 'corporate interests' taking over Uptown and Downtown, local joints are holding strong to Lake/Lyndale (slowly slipping however) but making a big leap in Old School NE Minneapolis...If 1st Ave Falls, we're all doomed !!

rawk that casbah Gonzo !!

yeah, that is like a labyrinth of twisted mania that it has taken about 1/4 century for me to develop. so venture forth ye of strong mental constitution. i am at a pistol range in san leandro right now. waiting for my lane to open so i can take out a lil' aggression on some paper, for someone who dislikes violence i sure do use it like a tool to cope a lot, but you need to release pressure, so its not thatmuch of a contradiction, or am i just thumbing myself on this one?

i just drove over the bay bridge in a thick fog on my motorcycle,the fog was so thick it was like the world was dissolving and you couldn't make out anything farther than about 12 ft. it was a nice feeling to just open it up and forget about everything and remember it all at the same time. i gained a lil' peace in the maelstrom, a lil' shelter in the storm, the last thing you ever feel in this conciousness is a moment like that...

that was a really good insight. All i can say is wow

lookit that. it is empty. hmmm.


bathtub.

Another old fuck! alright I'm not so alone anymore

Who's your roommate I knew a guy in SF who uswed to throw Capricorn parties?

Yes...that is an actual quote and it will continue to be my theme because that's my ticket...kinda like when the guy from Smashing Pumpkins shaved his head so that people would recognize him/band/sound easier...its not working yet, but just you wait...

CC Club...Yes its still standing strong, kept up by the billowing smoke that hides there. Haven't been there in awhile, it seems that every time I choose/wish to go there I just end up at Red Dragon...

Robert Downey Jr....hey, any way to get him involved in a script is fine with me, seems a little derivative of Buffalo Bill from Manhunter however, or is it Philip Seymour Hoffman in ummm, whats the name of that flick?!?!...now there's a script waiting to happen, just write one with PSH and RDJr. as your two leads.

Script Writing 101: Adaptation...watch and learn...I wish I would have seen it 7 days ago because then I could have said it was the best movie I've seen all year, not quite as powerfull when you say that 7 days into the new year...oh well..

Props on the Raiders Ticks...J...E....T....S, JetJetsJets

I hope you don't mind but I'm going to put you as one of my 'friends' since you're the first to write in my journal...

dude, what's on your head?

hey, i didn't make somebody mad, i feel a lil' better about myself(jus' a lil') i helped chupa hang her art at leather tongue and i hung out with those gals last night, went to see salba d.j. and was supposed to do more but got drunk(off wagon) and now i actually feel a lil' better, something to stem that manic tide i was riding, my destablizing mania has bled out a lil' this week, saw a couple of heads from past on haight, haha i "hate" that, wanna buy a "haighth", fuck it, giggling hurts my head right now, reading is at balazo gallery on 24th & mission on the 24th, not the 25th like i first thought and n.y. trip is post-poned so i will find a dark cave and hide and stop bothering strangers because jesus does not love bothersome strangers in a strange land, i need to trade in car, go see nina tonight or tomorrow, the newest bub is throwing up...can't get hold of my son, i am bad father, raider game on sunday, can't go to l.a. til monday, must call miss micki today... eat a frozen waffle and drink coffe with fronte blunt before corporate meeting... i wiill gut their puny company and leave it bloated carcass on the middle of wall street so all can see my handiwork...sorry, right now iam bad influence, kids don't try this at home, as elephant man would say,"bad man a bad man, fool issa fool"....peace@love.... rizza

[Edited on Jan 07, 2003]

i am harrassing myself to see what it feels like for other people, i am easy to misunderstand, i put some music that i like out cuz' alethea said that is how people like to know they have something in common, she goes on the internet and knows thing about it so i followed her advice, i think music lists are so confining because that is not the most accurate gauge of my interests because it so limited, i think it makes me seem outdated, ooops, i guess iam outdated....