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i couldn't stand being stuck in the house anymore so i got job. home town cafe had a help wanted sign in the window and i had worked there for like 7 months before i went to enersys so i gave them a call today and they said they would be happy to have me back, sweet . i am so fucking elated, i absolutly...
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it's rough being so unmotivated. i have a lot of goals i would love to achieve but let's face facts......i am fucking lazy. i go through spurts where i am super motivated and really have a strong drive to accomplish things, and then there are times where my creativity is totally lacking and i generally feel like a slug. right now, i am the slug....
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i hate my husband, and my shrink's receptionist.

la la la.... spent most of the day with my mim (and yes i call her mim) yesterday. we went and took care of my citation for driving without proper proof of insurance (the card had expired the day before and i hadn't put the new one in the car yet damn the bad luck) and donated a cell phone back to t-mobile, and got...
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i think i was meant to be a brunette. i am too fiery to be a redhead, my hair will never go blonde enough, and the pink, while it was cute was streaky and drove me crazy for the two days i had it. so brunette it is....brunettes are hot anyway. my brother called me yesterday to see if i was going to go to...
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i got laid off from my job, which sucks, but we all knew it was going to happen sooner or later. they laid off 50 or so people a couple of weeks ago and laid of over sixty on friday. greg said they should be calling us back around the first of january, so that is good. shitty time of year to be laying people...
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awake agian went to bed at 8 am, awake by 11 am, must be dying........there is just no other excuse for that. the lithium has made me feel really gross over the last couple days, but the first day was by far the worst, i felt like i was going to the entire time i was at work and finally did when i got home....
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so lithium and lamictal it is then. took it this morning, i can feel the fog rolling in. thirsty as hell, chugging juice like a camel. must stay hydrated! slept too long, but it took some ambien to even put me out. i feel like the night time schedule eats into my "me" time, ie: i am turning into a slob. personal maintanence has fallen...
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goddamnit! i slept for 3 and a half hours this morning. this no sleep shit is killing me. my shrink apt. is at 4:00 so i could have slept for another 2 and a half hours, i have not the slightest clue why i'm awake. pissed. in talks with myself to consider piercing my temples, will post pics if that comes to fruition. B isn't...
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it's early and i'm awake....again, damn it. after paying bills my paycheck went out the window, so here i sit, broke again. i am so broke i can't even fund my own makeup fetish, now that is some sad shit. last night's date with Huck went well. The Weather Man is great, i reccomend it highly. i could have had an orgasm while eating Maggie...
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