oh, to be young and retarded. which i am. very. so here is the score kiddies, i am in love. that's right. i, the emotionally stunted bitch that i am, is in mad love. to be honest it scares the fucking shit out of me. the boy is unbelievably wonderful and i fear that he is honestly too good for me. he treats me right,... Read More
It's the same for everybody. I myself like to calm down with a glass of scotch, a bit of tv, and then going out and beating the hell out of a random stranger. Every one of those someone would say that they're not the things that I "should" do, but they just help me unwind at the end of the day.
i'm hung over as fucking hell right now. and that thing that i wanted to say, i finally got the fucking guts to say it and he said it too. and it was good. really fucking good. and it's only been three weeks. and it's strange. and i mean it. he even knew i wanted to say it a week ago. it was his first... Read More
Sorry. I'm afraid you're just gonna have to get used to that though. I say stupid things a LOT. You forgiving me though, that's never a good idea, in my opinion. Accepting that someone is imperfect, that only goes to say, but I think it's always best to try and push everyone else to try and be perfect. You can still accept me as a person knowing that I'm imperfect and am going to make lots of mistakes. But you should never settle for fuckups.
we are supposed to be going to the beach later. i am going to attempt to conquer my terrible fear of the ocean with a little help. finally found a swimsuit that adequately covers my boobs while still being cute. when the fucking hell did bikini tops gets so small anyway? starting to get used to this whole happiness thing, almost feel like i deserve... Read More
life is lacking structure these days. i've got no focus. my brain is all over the place and it's getting harder and harder not to blurt out the thing that's been swimming in my brain for a few days now.
i hung up on one of my friends last night. she calls me up at like 11ish and tells me she really wants a cigarette. she's 25 fucking years old and is still hiding the fact that she smokes from her mom and girlfriend and normally have no problem picking her up and taking her wherever to pick up a pack. but she was just... Read More
i think i'm finally mellowing out, been on a mania driven bender for the last week or so and it has taken it's sweet toll on me. i let myself get terribly out of hand and it kicked my ass. lately i've written a bunch of fairly cryptic nonsensical shit and for that i'm sorry. i just don't know what to say most days other... Read More