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Out look grim.....

Man i look so un heathly. I mean i'm not eating as much, sure as hell ain't sleeping and all i do besides mope/clean/read/video games I work out. Very very poorly. I went running again and only made it to the beach. I went really really early while it was still shitty out. My moods only slightly perking cause i'm getting the inpression i'm missed...
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Grandpa's on the hobby horse again...look out.

I never wanna be the guy who made her cry. I did that tuesday. I did my share of crying this week already. Braking my promise would make her do just that, cry. I already broke her heart once. Hell knows what i'd go through to ensure that i don't do it again. I meant every promise i ever made her. But right now we...
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The last thing i need right now is a weekend with parents on a weekend when the once person who used to make things make sense in life has been informed that she can't see someone she once claimed to love or they'll take away someone she loves even more. Of course by this point the feelings for me must be fleeing

I did this...
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I wonder if she even misses me at this point....judges consenus "NO!"

Its my day off.....hehh i went running twice. My goal for the summer was to run through grant park. I haven't kept up on it with the gf in all. Now due to my (self-induced) sitution i hve nothing else to do. So i went running. I made to grant park and to the hospital my first try. Which is like about 3 miles. Second...
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If i can make it till tuesday. Maybe i can talk them into supervised visits when the social worker is over there. i don't think i'll get the whole thing droped. I don't wanna see my former girlfriend lose the most inportant thing in her world any more than i wanna see harm come to that child. But i'm not an abusive person. I've never...
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I am a fucking monster

We all live in the hell we create