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Its my day off.....hehh i went running twice. My goal for the summer was to run through grant park. I haven't kept up on it with the gf in all. Now due to my (self-induced) sitution i hve nothing else to do. So i went running. I made to grant park and to the hospital my first try. Which is like about 3 miles. Second try i went two blocks past the hospital...than i vomited and walked back home.

I made a vow to this girl i know that i wouldn't smoke pot. I've had a flood of offers sense. Of which i was like look getting high would make do one of two things, if not both, make me ignore the situation at hand for a couple hours, number two make me over think the situation at hand for a couple hours. My next goal is to clean this place up.

I promised her and mostly myself that i wouldn't call her till tuesday. All i really want todo is hear her voice right now. I kinda consider this as my way of paying for my sins. I'm eliminated my one aveanue of pleasure that even though everythings falling part between us right now....i could hear her say "shh christopher robin tommorows another day" hehh is it tuesday yet? Besides she could use time away from this voice. NOt just cause i'm starting to get sick so its hard to understnd me. Besides i don't think she'd answer. On top of that this mess has to be killing her and hearing my voice would just add to the confussion thats already brewing up inside her.