pollythundercat

I was ditched on Saturday.

And I was stood up tonight.

I feel like shit. I feel like I'll never be good enough for anyone in this shithole.

SG keeps going under fucking maintenance....WTF!? This is like the 5th time I'm trying to post this shit....

Ok, i'm back. I finally have interwebs at home. Since last night, but SG was being dumb so I couldn't post.

Yesterday I got called melodramatic. Yeah. Maybe. Whatever. I'm not happy to be here and I'm not rushing to be. I got plenty of time down...
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Still no internet.

Still in denial.

Still avoiding being by myself.

Not that anyone really cares.....but, fuck this shit. Seriously. I'm angry.

Hi....
I'm here.

I will have a better update once i have internet set up again. I'm at my best friend's house right now, he picked me up from the airport and I came bc i didn't wanna sleep alone in my house. Grandma is not there and I wasn't ready.

Thank you so much for all the mentions in blogs and all comments on...
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I feel so......overwhelmed.
By all these things going through my head....and I'm holding them all back as much as I can because I don't wanna break down.
I feel that every part of this trip that had to be organized and planned was a complete failure. Nothing went smoothly, not even on my last days here. And these are all things beyond my control. Sounds...
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What a night.

I'm glad i was able to enjoy most of it, but all the shit hit me this morning. It really wasn't the right night.


Two and a half days left. I feel 'fine' now, I'm sure I'll shatter to pieces once I step into that airplane. Last night didn't help much either.

Meh....fuck it. Right now I'm just trying to be prepared,...
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I have a lot to be thankful for....but I don't wanna write bc I am bummed out.

So forgive me, I'll probably do that the day before I go back...


Happy thanksgiving...
xoxox