The lie of life

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Only you can make you happy. Happiness starts with you. No one can make you happy but you.

This is all a cop out. In a sense, you must be happy with your self. Yes that is true. And I am happy with me. I love to cook. I love to read. I work hard. I give as generously as I can to everyone I...
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darrensgirl:
I'm sure your grandmother would be very proud of you! Why wouldn't she be? You've described yourself as a very honest and hard working person, you also write beautifully. Keep smiling beautiful man xxx
user8992:
How does that saying go.... before you start being down on yourself make sure you aren't surrounded by assholes.   You my friend are so loving and kind. Passionate and wonderful. Whoever is making you feel terrible please don't let them in your head. Your grandma btw would be very proud I'm sure. She knew you through and through I bet sweetheart. Sending lot' if love and light 💚 

Christmas is still not the same without her. Gone since 2004

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Christmas will always be void because this wonderful woman is not in it. Taco Christmas dinners, baking christmas cookies for a week, watching her in her rocking chair crocheting something for donation to Rileys Kids. Since her passing I have seen very little magic in this holiday. I will always remember her smile and try my hardest to live to make her proud even when
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Animal story

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this is Joy. She was basically rescued from a family off Craigslist. She had been abused and was so timid. The first 6 months she hit me almost every other week. When I would fold laundry and snap my shirts she would drop and cower, or if I shook my paper to get the crease out she would drop low and cry. I love this
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cwalker323:
❤️
caraphernelia:
Poor little girl :o hopefully she is okay now :3

Death

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I have been thinking alot about death lately. My own mostly. I have wondered who would be effected by my passing. Who would mourn. Who would show to the funeral or wake. And I have no legitamite answers. I have always been someone on the fringes of the shadows. You see me, you recognise me, you talk to me. Once I am gone from sight,...
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user8992:
@pixen_ is very true. Your role in this universe is unique and important. Your recolations above show how kind and thoughtful you are. People not showing up for you are a reflection of them not you. I stopped celebrating my birthday years ago because i felt like I was a burden to others. Least that's how i let them make me feel. Now I worry about myself and try to be a good person. Everything else eventually falls in place. I tend to think we have so much crap that falls our way because we are strong enough to survive it. I also realized when I was feeling suicidal and the worst I had to really look at whose energy I was around and letting in. Sometimes you have to walk from what you live but is toxic, etc. You got this. So many are being challenged to find their way. You are worthy of so many wonderful things. Be easy my friend. 
leetattar:
I think a lot of the same things last time. And also have no answers...

I want a baby

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Maybe it's the holiday, maybe it's the communication with a new friend over their loss, maybe it's loneliness, maybe its lack of sleep, maybe it's all that and more. I want a baby. I want a child. I want a bond and love that can never be broken. I love kids. My biggest regret in life was that I never gave my grandmother grandchildren before...
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My charitable organization: Riley Children's Hospital

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This one means so much to me and I am getting choked up writing this. Riley Children's Hospital here in Indianapolis has been leading research and care giving hospital in the US for decades. My grandmother use to knit all year long with her church group to donate at Christmas time. After she passed, inspired by her generosity, I have organized toy drives with my...
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user8992:
That would be wonderful. Great charity! I hope you start soon. 
miyumiyu:
Congratulations on your generosity and your investment
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