I walked through the university to get my volunteer badge so I can start for Riley on Thursday and people watch as I normally do. I have noticed this for a long time, but want to get this out there. Please hear with me, my mind is scattered.
People hardly look at each other anymore. Whether it's on the campus, downtown, the mall, where ever. As I walk, I kind of make it a game to look people in the eye, smile, and nod. recognise that they are there and see who does the same. In the two hours I have been down here walking from my work parking garage to where I am sitting on campus, 3 people have returned recognition. Out or hundreds or even more.
How did we end up here? How have we eroded do far to not even acknowledge someone walking 3 feet away? 2 feet? Closer? How do we walk the tight rope of "respect me but dont look at or acknowledge me"? Is it fear? Fear of being judged? Or being thought of as judgemental? Is it anxiety of the erotion of culture and social norms?
Its heartbreaking to see so many vibrant and beautiful people and souls locked away unable to be free.
Or is it just me? Am I the ugly one that frightens people into closing off? And I so off putting that people in real life judge this book by its cover? It has been a beautiful sunny mild day. Now I feel hidden under an overcast cloud.
