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pointman11

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Self hate is a bitch

Nov 14, 2017
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I can' keep doing this. I need to find a way to forget her. I need to find a way to move on. I need sleep. I need to stop thinking. How big of a POS am I to be thrown away so easily? Why am I never good enough? How am I so repulsive? I feel like Quasimodo. I feel like I am Cyrano, always in the shadows, never enough. I hate myself. I look in the mirror and just get angry. If I never looked at my reflection again it would be fine with me

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pointman11:
@tali79tap I just wish I could turn the noise off in my head. And didn't think about her all the time. It' to the point that even at work I can slip into cruise control and let my mind wander 
Nov 14, 2017
tali79:
No matter what I'm doing or where I'm at I'm always thinking about her. 
Nov 14, 2017

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