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pointman11

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Dec 13, 2015
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II don't know if its the weather or the holidays but today i feel lost and invisible. I feel like i am suffocating like i can't take in air. I am alone in a crowd. I almost want to call my ex and give her Joy, pack a bag and leave everything here and just go. Spend the last of my paycheck on gas and drive until my truck won't go anymore. The loneliness of my life is like a weight against my chest anymore. I feel like i am losing at everything. My job, my health, my heart, my soul, my existence. I am just lost, and i dont really know if i want to be found. If it would be worth it. I hate how i feel inside anymore. I hate feeling worthless, even if someone compliments me. I just smile and inside i wonder who it is they are seeing.

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bayley:
I can relate to these words and these feelings you wrote about here. I do hope today has been a good day.
Dec 16, 2015
user8992:
I agree with @koniko. Very well put. Hope you are feeling better. Certainly worth it sweet Mr. 
Dec 25, 2015

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