Lets get something strait. I stopped taking my insulin. I dont have teh time money or energy to waste on this being healthy for you or you or even you. I do this for me. and I will explain.
I have diabetes. Lets all deal with this tid bit for a second. I (and in capitol letters) HAVE DIABETES!!! Lets not pretend like there is great deal of concern here. This is a battle I have been losing even when I was vigilent in all endevers. And in my current personal life I REALLY dont give a shit about myself. I have been walked away from by more people, employers, coaches and teachers that its pretty well hammered home that I will always be a fringe memory. I have had virtually every relationship ever, romatic and associated, walk away from me SHOWING me that I am not much more than something to be brushed off and left. So lets not all have a pity rally over this.
I give all of myself in almost every way. And it is never enough. I dont drink, smoke, do drugs, work hard, trust with my entire being jst to be ridiculed, and brushed off? Fuck that bullshit!! Why the hell do I want to be healthy another 38 years to watch those I open up to slam me shut lke a pantry door.
I DO THIS FOR ME BECAUSE i AM TIRED OF THE BULLSHIT!!! If we cant deal with it, its not like I havent been walked away from before. And I will be just that again. A fringe memory. What does anyone care?
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I have diabetes. Lets all deal with this tid bit for a second. I (and in capitol letters) HAVE DIABETES!!! Lets not pretend like there is great deal of concern here. This is a battle I have been losing even when I was vigilent in all endevers. And in my current personal life I REALLY dont give a shit about myself. I have been walked away from by more people, employers, coaches and teachers that its pretty well hammered home that I will always be a fringe memory. I have had virtually every relationship ever, romatic and associated, walk away from me SHOWING me that I am not much more than something to be brushed off and left. So lets not all have a pity rally over this.
I give all of myself in almost every way. And it is never enough. I dont drink, smoke, do drugs, work hard, trust with my entire being jst to be ridiculed, and brushed off? Fuck that bullshit!! Why the hell do I want to be healthy another 38 years to watch those I open up to slam me shut lke a pantry door.
I DO THIS FOR ME BECAUSE i AM TIRED OF THE BULLSHIT!!! If we cant deal with it, its not like I havent been walked away from before. And I will be just that again. A fringe memory. What does anyone care?
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dawnie:
Hey Jon, try keeping your head up. As Jens already wrote you on fb this all is not worth giving up yourself! You still have friends caring of you even if we are far away physically!