It hurts knowing that her voice will not be the last thing I hear before sleep anymore. hy cant I be good enough to have a relationhip with? Why when I distance myself from people to be with her, when I ask beg and plead to come see her, when I ake her the center of my entire world, am I only another satallite in hers? about now, while watching the lightning storm that comes through, I wish that I could just be struck and not have to deal with this pain anymore. to not have to feel this loss. I trusted you with my entire being, and it was not good enough. If I drank, I would be passed out. If I smoked, I would hope that I cold not feel. If I could only not feel. Please help me not feel
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