pointman11

wonders what it will take honestly to find some peace. I am tired of being alone. just the lack physical touch of someone burns my skin anymore. Lonliness is a physical pain.Those whom I trust, I find I question now. Those whom acted like I was someone special in their lives have all moved on. I literally have only seen 3 friends since I have been home. I have a job, I have fought hard to get my sugarsi n order, but for what? to continue an existance of walking between rain drops? for once I would like to find someone who misses me, thinks about me, wants me there. for once I would like to find someone to caress my head, to ask how my day was and mean it. I am not a handsome man, by any means. But I have the heart of a warrior and the soul of an artist. How can one man be made to suffer so deeply? I have never been married, and have had no children. And there is a reson for that. I want someone I can build a life with, someone whom I can grow with them, enjoy life, experience all thatlife has to offer. It is such a cruel irony that someone who adores children has none. For someone who loves to capture the memory can create none. I have people that I can waste time with, but since almost destroying my self, I dont want to waste another minute. And yet when I climb this mountain of life and look out across all that I have conqured, I will have no one to share it with. I will still be alone. How do I justify not throwning myself off that peak?

About
Lonliness- I know
Only
Nobody
Ever asks.