and the adventure ends. I am humbled to say that I fly home June 20th because of my health. The diabetes has not gotten better, but only worse. I was holding out that I could have found a doctor here and found treatment, but alas no. Lackof a job means that my visa would not be approved, lack of basic conversational german skills prevents me from getting a job. I feel like I failed. I feel like my body hates me, I feel like I am going to go home and will just pick up in the same rut that I had hoped to change here. But the worst feeling is that people whom I had know may look on me with pity and I hate that. I hate when I explain that I have diabetes, that everyones first reaction is "Oh, I am so sorry". Its not live I have been given a death sentance, just the opposite. But right now my body is fighting me, and I need to go home. I now weigh the same I did in high school. Around 155. To put in perspective, I weighed 203 January 1st, and weighed 168 when I arrived 6 weeks ago. I look at my reflection now and I swear I dont recognise me. I hope I am making the right move and in time.
sinn0cent:
Dont be sorry...life is life no matter who you are or what you deal with. You had a adventure...so what if it ended early...you still went and gave it a shot. Most people would never get that far. Take care of your health now...have another adventure later when your back up to par. Dont let this be a downer...life goes on and so will you. Be positive and look forward.
dawnie:
Oh no its really sad that you have to go home! 
I hope, you will come again soon? Dont worry about your german, its a really difficult language. 
When we meet again we may practice some words.
I hope, you will come again soon? Dont worry about your german, its a really difficult language. When we meet again we may practice some words.