philomela

i have to rant about it. i just fucking have to.

the entire time i was gone, he did not call once, e-mail once, he did not anything once.
i come home and he has disappeared to boston for the weekend; hiding from me and my too-intense, unrestrained EMOTIONS undoubtedly.

i know we are almost to the end of our path of destruction, but i...
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My blog-absence has been due to my absolutely insane vacation schedule. No matter how much "free time" I have, it becomes instantly filled. I bounced from Maine, to Boston to a couple different locations in New York in four days and I am still running, running.

I'm afraid if I stop, everything will catch up with me and I really don't want that to happen...
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i can barely grasp it, but i've broken up with my boyfriend. and not for lack of love; for lack of functioning. we just can't seem to make it alright, despite how much we do care for one another. i'll be here with him for six more weeks, which is.... going to be.... awful.

but. i'm trying to remind myself at great frequency that i...
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day-um!

i forgot how harsh things can be when you put your naked body up on the internets.... i got a lot of great advice/compliments, but there's always that comment that stings unintentionally.... everyone can't like everything about everyone else. and life rolls on....

i'm still pleased with it. it was fun to do, and i felt more like myself than in other shoots i've...
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for whatever reason, i've been craving sushi like never before.

i. love. sushi.

i'm really excited to be getting my second tattoo at the end of this month. the artist is brilliant, the picture is brilliant! i'm glad i waited longer to get the second image, because i'm certain that i'll be happy with it.

i'm also getting my septum pierced, which i've been thinking...
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Felt the first crack at spring today. But it'll be overshadowed by tomorrows ice and muck. Oh well, it's only 3/4.

I'm in a whirlwind over my 20th Century Music midterm/ Sight-singing aural test/ Algebra exam. So it's off to studying. But really, it's off to spending more time wasting my time and working up to a panic at about.... let's see....

10:42 pm, this...
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so, wow

seven months later..... the mini-recap

started school, auditioned for a music major, was accepted, went home for holidays, fought with boyfriend, had a beautiful autumn, had a beautiful holiday break, fought with boyfriend at ever-increasing rate, started second semester, decided music major is not for me, got in over my head with work and school, fought with the boyfriend, turned 22 (an event...
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yeah, i haven't updated in a while.

what of it?

i'm going back to the hometown next weekend.

i figure it's a good thing to see my mother and thank her personally for shelling out ten thousand dollars so that i can attend college this fall.

till then, i will just be working. my photographer bailed on me for this friday. he's working on material for a surface magazine contest, so i understand.

i'm really...
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