I see interest. Girls at work. 18 on up. Beautiful. I get to talking. I have nothing right. The young ones lose interest. I need to focus. The ones middle twenties on up lose interest. It is no wonder i am celibate. I am not ready. Reading the bible actually gave me more of an appreciation for sex. An appreciation i will gladly wait for. For the girl that is right for me and i am right for her. Then the intamacy. The love. The lust. The passionate, ravinous, aminalistic, undeniable, unresistable, undying lust, will be far more intense and meaningful. That is what i crave for i have experienced it. It takes one year, i hope, for my sex drive to fully subside. Will it be worth it? I will tell you at the end of this ride.
If i can meet a woman with this " build a fuck mentality". We can be unstoppable. Maybe a different view on it will help. This is just the challenge i have made for myself. I feel the energy would be, in a sense wasted if i just chose just anyone to be with...
