Just a quick (ha!) update: This medication makes me feel like absolute garbage.
SPOILERS! (Click to view) I have no appetite and I keep getting sick when I do eat. That, and I can't sleep. And I keep crying. I cried at the dinner table five times and threw up twice.
The help I got wasn't too fantastic.
SPOILERS! (Click to view)The doctor I saw friday was a psychoanalytic elitist stupid bitch with too much judgement for someone who makes their money helping people with their problems. I'm going back tuesday. She is within my range of affordability.
Today I came in contact with some old friends, it was really nice.
SPOILERS! (Click to view) They mentioned some other old friends, who have dissappeared into the wild of severe druggage and alcoholism. Niiiiiice. I'm glad I grew out of that crowd, nothing good has become of them. They stopped trying at sixteen. The other friend I spoke to is sober again (which is always when he makes contact) and trying to be my bff. It's probably the fifth time he's done this in the past few years. Six months sober though, that's the longest i've heard of so far.
I'm looking at taking hotel management courses to work on a cruise ship.
SPOILERS! (Click to view) I'd like to make some cash for startup and university. I think I really need a new job. And braces. I cannot stress enough that my program at school is really not what I want to do with my life, and feel useless wasting my time on it.
I've come to the conclusion that i've gotta get off my butt and be on my own.
I spent the weekend with the boyfriend.
SPOILERS! (Click to view) It was a VERY very sexy weekend, at least now we know that the meds don't effect my sex drive. Woohoo! Exept I woke up really early this morning- I was so bored I cleaned his entire appartment, spent an hour doing yoga, watched a super awesome show on the science of interrogation (which really reminded me of
trouble_, and made muffins. I ALSO got the new jamie oliver cookbook which i'm looking forward to exploring next weekend with the mister.
I'm also taking better care of my body.
SPOILERS! (Click to view) By taking meds, not drinking or smoking pot really (though I did slip up and take a puff off a joint... oops....) and I have to stop smoking cigarettes when I double my dosage tuesday... and i've been getting back into yoga which I love love love but I haven't been able to afford to take classes.
I have such a long week ahead of me with so much schoolwork and crap and my sexual assault center.... bwwwaaahhhh.....!
OH! And I really really really want a camera. Really. I'm saving up all my change.
Hope all else is well.