notraps_spiltoh

my heart gets put into too many things that it shouldn't.

today i see the doctor.
then it's graduation.
i'll probably edit this later on.

i want to scream so loud that i lose my voice.
im going to sleep now.

i can't sleep.

first of all, what the fuck motherfuck?

i saw oli this morning.
he let me look through his photography portfolio.

i thought i was going to die on the way down to the doctor.
i thought i was going to die at the doctor.
the doctor told me something that makes me think im going to die within the next month.

i have to go to my old high school's graduation now.
and hope that i don't run into someone's father.
and cry my eyes out lookin at all my babies graduate.
then go to this bitch's party.
and somehow not get in the pool.
which is going to be hard.
because i'm overheated.

i am afraid to talk to the only person i want to talk to