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Allo,
The total for all the damge to my car from the temper flare of the drunk man comes to just over a thousand dollars. I have paid to fix the front window (which is kind of necessary) and that set me back three hundred and thirty. I had to take money out from a cash store (which I despise).

My moods haven't really been...
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Watching the wonderful series finale for M.A.S.H., my most favorite television program ever and then also finishing the book "Johnny Got His Gun" in the same night left me feeling depressed as hell and jerking back tears of disgust for humans, and empathy for the slaves known as soldiers.
Cheers.

Noise:
David Bowie "Lady Stardust"
David Bowie "Velvet Goldmine"
David Bowie "Moonage Daydream"

Well, going out to a few bars with my brother to play pool turned out to be a less than good thing.

Everything was fine up until the fourth bar where a fight broke out and then once the people were forced out of the building, one of the persons involved got up on my car and smashed in the window, then went up and...
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Walking home at three in the morning, not making it home until four thirty. Bleeding, sweating, and hating. Just wanting a car to side swipe me a bit, give me a broken bone of some kind and not any serious injury.

I can't stand girls, they seem to enjoy fucking with the boys that are actually nice for them and care about them. Things were...
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I am dirty from excercising and also from just being comfortable with being dirty. I just hate shaving and that is why I am usually stubbled and such. It does not work well for me and is irritating and upsetting. I think I may have done about a hundred and fifty crunches within the past two hours.

I give blood tomorrow at one and so...
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My head's been a mess. I fuck myself over more than anyone else can hope to (and they try).

Back in the day, I got my then girlfriend Amee pregnant. She decided to abort it even though we found out at five months. The actual abortion was carried out at five and a half months. I suffered two nervous breakdowns directly from this and she...
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Even more books to add to my pile of "unreads". Today was minor howevere, returning with only five. They are:
Candide, Zadig, and Selected Stories by Voltaire
Letters On England by Voltaire
Beautiful Losers by Leonard Cohen
Atop An Underwood by Jack Kerouac
and
The Oxford Dictionary Of Modern Quotations.

That is all.
Cheers.

Noise:
Nada Surf "Inside Of Love"
Saul Williams "Not In...
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Allo,
I have been keeping a distance from the computer lately. Unintentional as it is, I do enjoy the space.

A trip to the semi-local used bookstore was a good success. Here is what I came home with (and for a mere twenty eight dollars):
Howl (and Other Poems) by Allen Ginsberg
Nine Stories by J.D. Salinger
Franny and Zooey by J.D. Salinger
Raise High...
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I hate being ignored and lost in the shuffle of faceless names by significant others. Without fault on my end and still giving kindenss and compassion, just suddenly things cease to exist on mutual grounds and I get ingored except to be yelled at for my withdrawl from the friendship if I do not give and give.
What the fuck is wrong with people. They...
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Entries are getting to be far and few, but things have been unsteady here and I have not been anything near stable.

This weekend went pretty well. We put on the fourth annual backyard bash. I am not even sure how many bands played, but we had cars lined up on both sides of the road from the street sign all the way to the...
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A busy past couple of days. A nice little get away down to Milwaukee, seeing people I have missed and some I never knew too well but would like to.

Max almost convinced me to go on the bus trip down to Tennessee that Amee and a few others were going on. It's Amee's bus, and all the kids are broke crusties, it would have...
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I got a call from an ex at two in the morning, she was crying and all that. Her and her current boy were out dumpstering for food when the cops showed up and dragged his ass to jail for outstanding warrants. She called me for comfort and also to ask to borrow just under four hundred dollars to get him out. There is a...
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