End of the Year I'm moving to VEGAS!!!!! 'nuff said... 
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alisa:
please vote in the multi-group
gayballs:
Vegas RULES
Life is shitty right now!!! i owe 1200 for rent by friday and i don't have that kinda money *sigh* I don't know what i'm gonna do ..... 
inmyshayde:
Sorry about your money troubles. Money always seems to be the break of everything. I owe plenty myself mostly for school but still. Thank you very much for the birthday wish
Frailty and Tragedy
Bitterness unheard
Cruelty and Sanity
the mind has been unnerved
Save me from the demons
that speak inside my head
Save me from the zombies
that reside beneath the bed
Protect me from myself
and all the harm that I wrought
Protect me from the fools
and their truth that I bought
Question all my motives
with the answers that I speak...
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Bitterness unheard
Cruelty and Sanity
the mind has been unnerved
Save me from the demons
that speak inside my head
Save me from the zombies
that reside beneath the bed
Protect me from myself
and all the harm that I wrought
Protect me from the fools
and their truth that I bought
Question all my motives
with the answers that I speak...
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daisy:
Beautiful, really. Wow.
Thank you so much for commenting on my set. Thanks.
Thank you so much for commenting on my set. Thanks.
So another long long long weekend. Damn did i mention long already?? So anyway i already have to go back to work in about 10 hrs. all day long. I can do it i can do it. Besides the tips i make are going for the trip to Seattle for the tattoo convention. Y'all better be going i hope to see some friendly semi-familiar faces...
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kahlua:
lady your FUCKING GORGEOUS and EXTREMELY HOT and you need more pictures up and you should fucking be an sg. fer sher.
onie:
heh.. thanks.. yeah.. i think the set was great.. personally.. but Im sure they had their reasons. glad you liked it tho!!! 
So i sit here after another long day at work; sad, exhausted, and contemplative. The past few weeks have been a wake up call and a good lesson in life. This now i guess gives me an opportunity to share with you what's been going on and what's been on the mind. But first i will warn you, that you might find yourself in this...
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kahlua:
wwwwwwwwwwwwwooooahahahhaha....
its scary to me how much i relate to this blog...alot of it makes a shit ton of sense, to me, it all makes perfect sense. i can relate.
right now im waiting...like at this very second waiting to find out if i get evicted. its up to my roommate and if he doesnt pay rent im evicted. he already moved out but his stuff is still here and hes on the lease. its ok if he doesnt. i already told him its ok. its almost easier really, to just get it over with. i dont know. who cares anymore? money doesnt even matter to me now. its so insignificant and im working to make money i dont have.
as for the drugs thing, wow. just very recently i met someone amazing who then almost died of an OD and im very bothered by it because soemthign about him, just caught me so offgaurd adn i was very looking forward to seeing him and now i know hes dealign with alot and he doesnt have time really for me in his life, but i said im willing to wait. i have alot of shit to deal with too so im ok with it all but i would really like to speak to him, see him h ug him. i have alot of issues with being touched an d letting people clsoe to me, physically and otherwise, but with him, it was this instant connection, rapport and we literally spoke for less than five minutes, but the connection...unexplainable. he kept me from getting knocked over by a bunch of big mosh pitt guys at a show, thats how we met, and he had his hand on my side, kind of ran his hand down from my ribs to my hip and i HATE being touched there but when he did it...god i wanted more. he was right up behind me and he spoke to me, leaned in and spoke right in my ear, and our lips were inches away and it made me dizzy. i wanted to turn around and pull him to me and kiss this total stranger. hed caught my attention the second i spotted him and id been stealing glances all nite wishing for a chance to tlak to him...it was crazy.
hes friends with my friend (actually shes his ex hahaha) and i spotted him talking to her and thats how we later made conversation. he asked her about me and she told him she dosnt think wed be good together cause hes fucked up and has alot of issues and im not.
i gues cause im in school, and im doing the tattoo shop and i work and blah blah blah i come off as issue free. HA!!! well adjusted my ass. i jsut have a shit ton of ambition.
i do better with fucked up ppl. when she told me he was messed up it made me feel better because i knew i wouldnt have to live up to my false image of....well....almost perfect.
im
a
fucked
up
kitten
blah....
i dotn know how to explain it. but it makes sense doesnt it? i hope so.
this is a long commetn.....meh....i guess im all up in the air. until i find out whats going on with my home and my friend...im so stuck. i want that dizzy feeling i had from him. like he was gravity.
**
another note
a very very very good friend of mine when i was in middle school had SEVERE ocd and she pulled out all her hair, and people gave her so much shit. shes one of the most amazing people id ever met....i just do better with people who have 'issues" cause i have plenty myself. fuck. i dont have issues. i am an issue.
and now that i have written a fucking novel ill stop. i hope i see ya at the convention dude!
its scary to me how much i relate to this blog...alot of it makes a shit ton of sense, to me, it all makes perfect sense. i can relate.
right now im waiting...like at this very second waiting to find out if i get evicted. its up to my roommate and if he doesnt pay rent im evicted. he already moved out but his stuff is still here and hes on the lease. its ok if he doesnt. i already told him its ok. its almost easier really, to just get it over with. i dont know. who cares anymore? money doesnt even matter to me now. its so insignificant and im working to make money i dont have.
as for the drugs thing, wow. just very recently i met someone amazing who then almost died of an OD and im very bothered by it because soemthign about him, just caught me so offgaurd adn i was very looking forward to seeing him and now i know hes dealign with alot and he doesnt have time really for me in his life, but i said im willing to wait. i have alot of shit to deal with too so im ok with it all but i would really like to speak to him, see him h ug him. i have alot of issues with being touched an d letting people clsoe to me, physically and otherwise, but with him, it was this instant connection, rapport and we literally spoke for less than five minutes, but the connection...unexplainable. he kept me from getting knocked over by a bunch of big mosh pitt guys at a show, thats how we met, and he had his hand on my side, kind of ran his hand down from my ribs to my hip and i HATE being touched there but when he did it...god i wanted more. he was right up behind me and he spoke to me, leaned in and spoke right in my ear, and our lips were inches away and it made me dizzy. i wanted to turn around and pull him to me and kiss this total stranger. hed caught my attention the second i spotted him and id been stealing glances all nite wishing for a chance to tlak to him...it was crazy.
hes friends with my friend (actually shes his ex hahaha) and i spotted him talking to her and thats how we later made conversation. he asked her about me and she told him she dosnt think wed be good together cause hes fucked up and has alot of issues and im not.
i gues cause im in school, and im doing the tattoo shop and i work and blah blah blah i come off as issue free. HA!!! well adjusted my ass. i jsut have a shit ton of ambition.
i do better with fucked up ppl. when she told me he was messed up it made me feel better because i knew i wouldnt have to live up to my false image of....well....almost perfect.
im
a
fucked
up
kitten
blah....
i dotn know how to explain it. but it makes sense doesnt it? i hope so.
this is a long commetn.....meh....i guess im all up in the air. until i find out whats going on with my home and my friend...im so stuck. i want that dizzy feeling i had from him. like he was gravity.
**
another note
a very very very good friend of mine when i was in middle school had SEVERE ocd and she pulled out all her hair, and people gave her so much shit. shes one of the most amazing people id ever met....i just do better with people who have 'issues" cause i have plenty myself. fuck. i dont have issues. i am an issue.
and now that i have written a fucking novel ill stop. i hope i see ya at the convention dude!
Right so it's been forever and a day and a half. I'm back so sorry to those who missed me. loves to you all. I'll update more later. -Nessa
loves to you all. I'll update more later. -Nessa
kahlua:
i missed you if that coutns for anythign.
so the seattle tatt convention. your going??? i am going. we should meet up dude. itd be fuckin rad.
so the seattle tatt convention. your going??? i am going. we should meet up dude. itd be fuckin rad.
Well i'm one day closer to getting my corset done!! i'm stoked!, and yes i did just say stoked it should be awesome. I think i'm going to do a cream colored or off white, or maybe even perhaps Bettie Page style with the polka dots. hmmm..anyway that also means i am one day closer to Seattle Pride, i'm excited i also get to see...
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kioko:
I am happy for you sweetie hope you get that corset soon and post pics,pics,pics!!!!!!...lol i can't wait for the Atlanta pride I will be leaving for ATL in about 3-4 days I can't wait.!!!!
kahlua:
=( your leaving us here???? poo. where are you going to get your corset?? or by the time you read this, did go??
that sounds fucking rad. i LLLOOOVVES me some corsets.
that sounds fucking rad. i LLLOOOVVES me some corsets.
YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!....ME! so i went out gambling the other night...and only decided to take in $40, yes i know, who gambles with so little, any way, i was playing the game Pai-gow. So i lost the 1st hand, pulled even the 2nd hand, playing only $15 a hand and then the 3rd hand what do you know i pulled out 5 aces!!!!!!!!!!!! I won $2,000 freakin'...
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hmm...so fantastic news i do believe!!! So i went in to see my piercer Raven at Altered Skin today and we set up my appointment to get my corset done. YAY!! we're gonna do it on the 20th with 10 rings total at 14G. i'm so excited it's gonna be good, and then i went to go see my tattoo artist, Tom at All-American Tattoo...
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ahhh..so my life has been going pretty well so far things have been looking up and nothing to complain about and all the suddenly this weekend things did a 180. Work i learned, somehow forgot the simple common courtesy of respect. "enough said there" i need not explain further.
But anyway, the girl i was "talking to" for those of you who understand the lesbian...
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But anyway, the girl i was "talking to" for those of you who understand the lesbian...
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darthvayne:
Welcome to the wonderful world that is Suicide Girls.com, my most favorite place on the whole of the internet. I know you only have a couple of journal entries, but you and I seem to have a lot in common.
Why cant affairs of the heart be less complicated? Is that too much to ask?
Couarge without Conviction is Apathy at Best
--DarthVayne--
Why cant affairs of the heart be less complicated? Is that too much to ask?
Couarge without Conviction is Apathy at Best
--DarthVayne--
cartridge:
Hi, and welcome.
add more pics !!!
add more pics !!!