necrocide

i've been in such a fucked up mood that it's difficult to even explain why on here... but anyway... i don't care anymore... i need to apply at guitar center soon... if i get that job i don't think i'll even go back to school in the fall... i'm really sick of drinking by the way... at least for now

crackity.

i don't know much about dream interpretations... i've been taking some extra strength pain relievers to get to sleep..... and i havent slept at all this night because i didnt take any and ive become to reliant... anyway i'm jumping around due to lack of sleep.... dreams... i've been having strange dreams when i take the pills... through out my life i've had alot of...
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I bought a new amp for my guitar today... its bitchin... my finger tappin pull offs have never sounded sicker!

I was hangin out at my bass players today jamming and just chillin with a few homies.... this one dude ive known a few months... crazy john... he's a good guy... one thing i'll always say is that good conversations are what make life... i...
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as if i havent been stressed enough

dont you hate those little moments in life that make you question whether you're really an adult or not? like walking into your room and finding that youre 21 years old and your mom still comes in to "clean" and all your stuff is rearranged.. i need to get the fuck outta here ...i'm so pissed off its...
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i'm in a weird mood... when i'm pretty apathetic about everything, i can at least tell if i'm either more content or bitter... right now i can't even much say i'm apathetic, i just feel really... nothing....

i took some sleeping pills last night so i could get on a normal sleep cycle... they tend to get outta control when i'm out of school and...
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do you ever just... live one of those nights... you go through it.... you dont think much... you come home, and cant believe what you've been through?

wraith....... we are now wraith....... and we thrash like motherfuckers!

i got stoned last night.... first time in a while... i dunno... i hate smoking... but last night i just really needed to get high.......

i puked for the first time from drinking thurs night i know what most people would say "yeah welcome to the world of heavy drinking" but the thing is... i'm...
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i can't decide tonight if i am in denial of a bitter mood or if i'm negatively content... i feel very negative but have little desire to dwell on it......

i've come to some conclusions that sound very bitter and nihilistic

i no longer believe in fate... i used to... i felt like we make our own decisions but that everything happens for a reason......
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i'm almost done with this semester... almost done with this GODDAMN FUCKIN SON OF A BITCH ASS semester... oh my god that first summer beer is gonna taste so sweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet.... road trips will be plentiful... cooling off in the ocean and pools.... hopefully holding my beloved in my arms and swinging her until the love becomes too dizzying, HOPEFULLY... but i will have a good...
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my rejection is coming so soon..... i couldnt be anticipating it anymore... but at least i will know for sure.....

i got a fuckin jury duty notice

i can get out of it... but either way it means waking up and driving out across town in the goddamn morning to take care of it... dont these people know i'm too goddamn lazy to deal with this shit

although i heard i can easily get out of jury duty by warning them that i'm an anarchist...
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