👋🏻👋🏻 I'm alive 😅
It's been hectic! But mostly good? I moved and started a new job this past month, which was why I've been pretty quiet. Also finally ran my marathon!
I bought a house! 🙏🏻😭💜 I didn't think that was going to happen for a while after the great deal I had over the summer fell through, but the realtor I worked with helped me with some grants and I feel very lucky (and slightly terrified lol) now to finally have my own space.
Three days after moving into the house I started a new job. Lots of change at once, but it's been good to be kept busy. I like the new job a lot so far, and hope it keeps going well.
The marathon I've been training for / ran this past weekend did not go as well as I hoped - one of my cats spent several days at the emergency vet right before hand (she had an adverse reaction to new asthma meds), immediately after I was sick for several days. Kitty rallied and did better the last 24 hours before so I decided to still run... But did so on very little sleep and after having had to miss my last few runs so basically went in with cold legs and feeling like shit. I maybe should have deferred 😅 but despite being slower than I hoped, I still had a good time and am excited to run the same venue next year, and hopefully some other races between now and then. I'm really grateful to have completed the marathon - my first big race since navigating long covid and everything that's come with it. And very extremely grateful my cat is okay because things looked pretty bad there for a minute.
I have been feeling kind of down since the marathon - I don't have any other races, or trips, or be big plans on my calendar so there's nothing specific I'm looking forward to at the moment which I always struggle with.
I think I need a period of slow down. Rest is necessary! It's just hard for me to idle. Last night while thinking about that I went outside and saw the northern lights.
The last couple years have honestly been such a shit show for me. A lot of health issues and financial stress. Some heartbreak. Forced change. Lots of change. Loss. Trying new things. But it's been a lot of good, too. A lot of love and learning. A lot of growth.
I felt so small and so big, in a sobering but good and humbling way, looking at the aurora borealis for the first time in my life, a long term dream of mine, standing in front of the house that I own. It was powerful. I feel kind of like I'm rebuilding a new life, and this seems like a pretty good way to start.
