motorazor

I've been a member on SG for a couple of weeks now, and have yet to write my first blog entry, so I guess I though it was about time. I came to be a member here on SG because my boyfriend, who I will be living with in under a week from now, bought me a membership as a present as he wanted to share the site with me. We've had some fun times with it, and I'm sure we'll have a lot more.

My boyfriend (known on SG as OJTheViking) has written a bit on his blog here on SG about making a lot of changes in his life as of late, and in a way it has been the same for me - although in different ways than for him. The changes I have made are mostly on the internal level; having to do with not letting my fears control my choices in life, and i.e. letting someone into my heart and into my life the way I have done with him these past months. When you're used to keeping people out, to try and protect yourself from getting hurt, that's kind of a big deal. I have a lot of demons/issues, many of them whom have been residents inside of me from back when I was growing up, and they're not always easily gotten rid of/killed, but I suppose the first steps in doing so is ...precisely, those first steps in not letting such demons make all the choices for you. But instead, make a leap, take some chances, dare to do something different.

I'm hoping first steps will lead to more, even on completely other aspects of life as well. All my life my big dream has been to one day become a published writer/author, but many periods and situations in my life have kept me from working on this as much/seriously as I have desperately wanted to do. Sometimes it feels like big parts of my life have been one huge writers block, although the truth is that may be a tiny, little exaggeration. Anyways, I'm hoping some changes in my near future will be about my writing, as well as in many other aspects of life. Who knows, maybe, if I can make it happen with the writing thing, that will help with some of those other demons as well - or vise versa. At least I will try to work hard with facing some fears and throwing knives at demons, to Kill 'em All, and I'm very thankful to have my wonderful man by my side when doing it - or, TRYING to do it at least. I'm sure we will be an excellent badass pair when kicking some demon ass. Whether the nasties in question are mine or his.

-Talk to strangers
-Write in starlight
-Hide in doorways
-Go to heaven
-Smell the flowers
-Dream
-Dance in darkness
-Write in starlight
-Talk to strangers
-Dream