So a few posts ago I wrote about having feelings for someone. I fell a little too quickly when I first got to know her, and I got over the fact that I would never be able to have a relationship with her, I let it go. For the sake of my friendship I gave it up so that things wouldn't be awkward between us.
But for some reason tonight my brain was just not having it. I am sick of being always friend zoned, and be told "I don't want to ruin what we have as friends" or things like that. I never asked to fuck, I wasn't trying to get just into her pants, I just wanted to feel the embrace of someone. We have never had a chance to just have some time to ourselves with no chance for interruption, and tonight we had a few hours til we were supposed to go out.
I was 100% straightforward with her after she zoned me tonight. The fact that she was taken aback told me how much I caught onto. I am the shoulder to cry on, the one who is "cute but not dateable because our relationship was so close". Not anymore I'm not.