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Well........sigh~....tonight sucked and I'm thinking of just going to bed so that it is over that much quicker. I went to this town dance performance tonight. It went for the kids because they always work so hard but believe it or not even though I'm a dancer, I feel like the alien there. In this case it was twenty fold. It came crashing into me...
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dizzy:
I hear ya. There really is not getting used to alienation. Even living with it, enduring it will wear a person down. Hang in there.
ltrain:
Being the tough one sometimes really sucks ass.

Yes it does. Alot of expectations and when they aren't met, alot of disappointment.
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unknowntrigram:
That would be cool
relapsed_eric:
i am not going to WEMF, i was going to the DEMF...in Detroit, i am actually supposed to be there right now...i signed a contract to be a stage manager and a dj tech, but i am not going to drive there myself after my ride scenario fell apart...they are not pleased with me. my jeep costs 40.00 a tank and i get 20 miles to the gallon on the freeway, flying could have been cheaper.
i would say you should probably bring a friend or two as there can be alot of people in alot of different conditions, and keeping an eye on your son will probably top priority. i am sure Winnipeg is a bit more relaxed than downtown Detroit, all the same...it is a Dionysian event.
there was a great variety of people in Detroit last year, families abounded...and i really could respect that, it made me feel good about the reach of electronic music...but up closer to the stage it felt alot like Altamont with little girls stage diving and having their clothing ripped off as they body surfed, and lots of trash being started on fire, it took on a very pagan tone.
i liked it.
be safe. EL SUICIDO LOCO
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Here we go.....


I'm tired. I fell asleep on the couch today for an hour or so. One of those sleeps that you wake and don't want to move from...where your limbs feel heavy and there is a warm drowsiness coating your everything.

Someone I know at the grocery store asked me how my social life was going. What an interesting question. I don't have...
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vutek:
personally, i'd like to hear more about the items purchased at this grocery store. items i like: extra-firm tofu, bars of soap, mach 3 blades, something salty, something sweet for later, never soda, the bulk bin section.

note: i've been drinking tea a lot lately.
angelus_am_i:
awww, if only i knew that at the time frown
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To Legionnaire,

My journal entry is for you.......

For what is to die but to stand naked in the wind and to melt into the sun?
And what is it to cease breathing, but to free the breath from its restless tides, that it may rise and expand and seek God unencumbered?

Only when you drink from the river of silence shall you indeed sing....
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legionnaire:
Thank you so much. I can't tell you how much that means to me. I really appreciate it.
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Tired, tired, tired.........

My mouth hurts but I finally have all my permanents. They feel marvelous. Very smooth and fun to run my tongue over. wink

New tattoo is done. Nice nice!!
Tomorrow if I'm not so pooped I will put up a pic.

Sorry folks....can't type anything else. My brain is mush.
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Well here I am munching at quarter after eleven on beef chow mein and deep fried spring rolls. I kinda wish they weren't the deep fried kind but they are still really good. I'm on a huge asian food kick right now. I've eaten it three nights in a row. Last night I made it myself. Rice noodles with chicken and various veggies...deadly stuff. So...
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gemini216:
i lived in kuopio for 3 months

finns rule

azrael_abyss:
ha! well today it got even worse. The German phone company turned off all of our (people in base housing) phones. Yep. Wanna know why? Because THEY forgot to send out phone bills last month. So instead of saying "oops we're sorry for this" they shut all of our phones off. EVEN IF YOU PAYED FOR YOUR BILL!!!!!! I'm really starting to dislike Germany a whole hell of a lot.

Congrats on the solo! I wish I could see it. frown I know you'll be awesome biggrin love
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Heya,

Thanks for the replies guys. There were most helpful and I took some more time to think about the whole scenario and my approach.

When I initially asked this person, I told him it was on recommendation from someone else (he's basically screwed that) and I described the project. We e-mailed back and forth many times because I was busy answering his questions about...
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angelvanilla:
Hey are you going to attend the Summer Party, July 3rd.
sonicjunky:
Yess! memories. The modest mouse is the soundtrack to my life... and my good friends'. Everytime i listen to them I get lost in memories.

i love yours... about the lover's mom!

Gawd, i just got lost for minute thinking about an old girlfriend and her prudish mother. I hoped you charmed her as I eventually did, but it took months!

"I've been extremely fortunate with my set and sound people. I have worked with them many times and I throw out directions, what I want, how I want it and leave them to it. I trust them with their work. I may like to touch base with them some time during the process so I can see whats up but basically I trust them. In return, I get a gorgeous job."

That's what i was trying to get at. It's the only way to work, but it does require that everyone is competent, and happy with their situation. If you've found these guys and it works then I suggest not changing your style, but try to find others like them you can trust without having to become some hardass just because the people you work with are slack. Don't you think? I mean, if someone doesn't take a person seriously just because that person isn't going to bark at them then, they're the ones that need an adjustment. you proved above that not everyone is like that, so I say skrew'em find someone who has their ethics in place.

Not working?
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There is something fundamentally wrong with how I deal with people. My lighting guy has basically disappeared without a trace. Two e-mails later and no phone call. The guy that was to operate my computer, I didn't think he was interested so I asked someone else. He gets back to me and says he has booked holidays. After almost 2 wks of not hearing from...
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legionnaire:
I don't think two people flaking out necessarily means that it's your fault. If it were like 15 people then maybe... but it doesn't sound like it. I guess my only suggestion is to find people who you consider to be as professional as possible, since disappearing is a very unprofessional thing to do.

Tae Kwan Do is fun - I studied it for a while when I was in college. It's great exercise.

And sometimes a little spring cleaning can be therapeutic. It's good to be able to overlook flaws in your friends, but if you just don't have anything in common any more or you've outgrown each other then trying to maintain a relationship can sometimes be more pain than it's worth.
sonicjunky:
That's interesting. There could be a number of things going on. My interpersonal skills certainly aren't the greatest, but I book my own work and know how it is on the other end. One thing that I and others I work with always avoid when possible is an overly demanding customer.... are you chasing them away Sisu?? tongue OK don't take that badly. It's all I have to offer without being there. Have you worked with the same guys before? If so was it an enjoyable experience for everyone? If it was then rule that one out. If you've never worked together before then is what you're asking of them beyond what they would normally do? Meaning that the chances of everybody walking away happy are slim? It could also be that you just picked a couple of lazy sods!.... Booked holidays whatever

I always stay away from clutter when booking anything work related by going straight to the dates. Find out if they're available for such and such dates and get them to commit the first time you speak to them. Give them an idea of what you need done, but don't go into details until they have. If they're being slippery pass right away. Find someone else. If they're good than even if you are demanding, they should be able to handle it, but they won't find out until they're committed.,, too late to bail.

I hope that doesn't sound preachy, just offering what I can, and I hope you find someone fast.


cleaning house always feels good afterwards. It's funny I do it with possessions. every year or so I start to feel agitated and chuck everything that I can out. I feel guilty about applying sentimental value to objects that never get used.
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Phew! Time flies!

Thanks for all your responses to my question. I have a similar feel for this site but on a few posts I saw that SG was referred to as a "porn site". My initial thoughs were, " Really?" I was also asked if I was a lesbian because I'm an SG member and not an SG. I've been hit on by women...
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miyu:
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!
dizzy:
most defintetly it is. I've tried hard to fight that feeling, but if something creeps into my mind, i'm lost. I wish i could still meditate.
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Well, I've had some really interesting chats , posts and conversations with various people! Thanks!

I will keep everyone up to date about the Toronto dance festival. biggrin
I'm performing in the distillery district sometime Aug. 13-18. Apparently I can have every one of those dates of just a few, depending on how hardcore I would like to be. I know I don't want to dance...
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starisea:
Oh! Forgot to comment on the site. Opps!

I don't consider it porn really. Most of the sets aren't in anyway overtly sexual. It's more like tasteful erotica with an alternative edge and hints of porn.

I find it almost sad that there are some who still consider a woman's naked body in only sexual terms. Dig?
sonicjunky:
Well that makes 2 of my friends with insomnia. Check Kiddizzy's journal. You'll find him posting all hours of the day!

Definitely an adult site, but I don't feel like its porn. It's just not dirty enough. Pinup seems to fit the best, but I'd say it's more of a networking place for creative/alternative types. I know there are plenty of people here that rarely even check the photosets, so it can't be just porn. So, what to call it then? i don't know. smile