Social hang ups got me awkward for sure.
Being raised in the shadow of a cross ....the fact that i find most desirable on some level is a curse. I mean, I know what naughty is and how to avoid it if necessary.... i just want to be able to touch and smile and laugh again, like no ones watching :) like no one can see... Like no one would care if they did - not even me.
I feel like all hope is lost
...how do i go about finding a replacement to something i never really had in the 1st place?
And should i really? What if i only really had but one shot at this and it's spent... I mean, that would account for all this heartache of late - i know im built for more but how much more before i break completely & should i really try to find out?
Bla
Maybe tomorrow....
Side note: I really should stay out of the garden like it's forbidden :) but i won't... I have been having so much fun playing with the animals lately... & something called Adam
Jdh
