misha9999999

oh YES YES YES!!!

i cannot wait!! how long will you be here?

i've seen those shots somewhere.. i like them. i love photography. have you seen wintereisse? by luc delahaye? you might like him. documentary, shot in russia. all color, really haunting and beautiful.

i like trail of the dead a lot. haven't heard of the rest, but now i'm curious. hmm...

sounds good. all good.

i'm working to save dough, too...
if i can keep from fucking losing it. damn.

i think i'm getting a good hold of my fuck-up technique, as well.
i want to be rising early... it'd be good for me.
maybe i'll start tomorrow.

blue eyes will miss you.

i remember running across that definition before, while reading the dictionary (seriously... good toilet lit) and loved the word. i love words... i hate them.
but i think life takes so many shapes.

i'm ready for a new one, too.

ah, and
some of my fonder memories are of being in/around mosh pits. good good times.
i'm glad you got to be there. sometimes sore is good for us, eh?

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i don't care for the new grog shop. though the red is nice.

and i like that you said you always want to contradict me and not always disagree with me. though i'm not sure what the difference is...

after reading this i just asked someone, "what's life shaped like?" and he said, "sometimes like shit." words of truth if i ever heard 'em.

are you? am i?
only one blixa... we're just following a good example. maybe. always stay the same. everchanging.

i know. i'm working on a solution.

hills and hills and hills on the horizon. always. *sigh*

thank you. it's a mantra.

what you said is kindof funny.
it sucks, but i have to agree with you for the most part. what sucks even more is that i think a good romantic relationship should be based on the bond made during friendship and the sex is just a way to express it and provide for one another physical pieces and pleasure.
blah dee blah. i think heather says that - blah dee blah. i like it.
i'm excited. i will drive you to work - i'd like to actually so i have a good awakening every morning. if you'll still let me.
i'm sorry you're so strapped for time. this time i'm taking now is out of my work but i will make it up this evening like i did last night and friday(and the night before and before and before and ... ). i think it's ridiculous that i sit on a saturday and feel bad for the work i could be doing. it doesn't end. i don't guess i'd want it to.

not too bad, two days.
i will email my itinerary. i will fix my phone . like today. i think i'll go now and do it. while i can remember

i forgot to eat lunch yesterday. tonight i have leftovers from last night's family gathering.

hi!
i want to smile at you.




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[Edited on Jul 22, 2003]

it seems so many people are leaving us.
i miss mel
i wonder how shes doing.

hey--i stumbled across a link you might like. i was looking up olivia parker, a photographer i like, and found this book/exhibit of photographs of "remnants" of people with deformities.
again, the ugly/beautiful thing.
peace.

http://www.riccomaresca.com/C/SHOWS/Mutter/MutterMuseumShow.htm

hi, misha. how are you?

it's been tough for me to stick around consistently the last few months...i hope all's well.

i miss your messages and journals. hopefully i can get my routine together sometime soon.

peace,

relethed

um, i read your previous journal, and i have this to say:

the only way out is through.

allow yourself to feel the anger and the hurt, go smash bottles on the pavement, whatever it takes. if you try to suppress it--to not give her the satisfaction of really getting to you-- you'll only end up hurting yourself. it'll come back and bite you when you least expect it, like when you're trying to have something good with someone else down the road.
aunt invisigirl means well.......sorry to give unsolicited advice.

seriously man, what is it with us an women? it's all too familiar. it's not like we're fucking trying for all this drama shit, y'know? is stability too much to ask for?

that's beautiful. it really is. depressing, but beautiful.

yeah, well

fuck you, too.


*pat pat pat*

in response to mine...
no I did not make it then...
but I shall be at Modest Mouse on Thursday in Cleveland.
I will write a response to yours soon.
take care misha.
-D

cool! glad to help!

i actually got into an argument a few months ago in a photoshop class i was taking, because people--including the fucking instructor!--were positive that witkin uses photoshop to create the deformities, etc.

dumbasses.

chicago soon?
hopefully

are you there yet?

as per usual. all too familiar.

be safe

hey misha, you still coming to cedar point?

clean clean clean...

into the night it seems.

and : how's blue eyes?

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